Love in Literature

This is a compilation of our “Love in Literature” themed week here at SeaGlass.

The world of writing is bound up in the world of the living. We pour our lives into our art and the stories we tell hold the deepest parts of ourselves in them. The most impactful of these stories reflect our world, show us into the depths of ourselves, and reveal emotion we can barely articulate. Love is one such emotion, possibly the beginning of them all when written right, and can evoke the most passionate or heart-wrenching story. 

We will be looking at all the different types of love in literature. How is it portrayed? Why does it grasp people’s attention? What can you do to write great love in your stories? This will divide the who, what, where, when, why, and how of writing love into stories and the different types of written love. What kinds of love do you find in stories? 

First, an exercise: We want you to think of the most famous love story. Why do you think it is that famous? Why has it stayed in the hearts of people for so long? And next, think of your favorite love story. What is similar or different about them? How do the authors of each approach the subject of love? Keep this story in mind as you read.

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The Seven Types of Love (Thank you to the Greeks)

There are 7 types of love found in literature terms: Eros, Philia, Storge, Agape, Ludus, Pragma, and Philautia. Taken from Greek, these seven terms represent the different types of love found in the stories we read and watch. More than one can be in a story at a time and these categories are fluid with each other. This breakdown of the different kinds of love will help you to better understand how the love in your story works in relation to the plot and characters. 

Eros

‘erotic or passionate love’

Also referred to as life energy. It is where we get the word ‘erotic’ in the English language. Eros is thought of as sensual or passionate love and is often expressed as physical love between people.

 Examples in literature: Romeo and Juliet

Philia

‘Affectionate or friendship love’

Most commonly portrayed as between friends and family. This is love without romantic attraction or an equal love. In terms of a romantic relationship, those cannot be sustained on just eros. Plato argued that Philia is the best version of love because friendship can lead and create a solid foundation to romantic love. 

Examples in literature: The One and Only Ivan, Piecing Me Together, Pride and Prejudice

Storge

‘familial love’

While having elements of Philia love this is more the bond between parent and child. An unconditional, protective love that can be more one-sided and require sacrifice. Is sometimes seen as ‘natural’ or ‘instinctual’

Examples in literature: Little Women, The Inexplicable Logic of My Life, Pachinko

Ludus

‘flirtatious or playful love’

Having a light hearted quality. Think of the honeymoon phase of a relationship in its undemanding nature. As easy as laughter between two people or games to keep each person on their toes. 

Examples in literature: Pride and Prejudice, Gentleman Prefer Blondes

Pragma

‘committed love’

Long-term, committed love. It is endurance, companionship, and sharing of a life. Includes family, friends, loved ones. 

Examples in literature: Pachinko, Washington Square

Agape

‘universal love’

A deep, selfless love for others and the world. This can be toward religious figures, nature, and strangers. As with others this has nothing to do with a personal bond and some refer to it as a spiritual love. 

Examples in literature: A Psalm for the Wild-Built, If Cats Disappeared From the World, Lord of the Rings

Philautia

‘self-love’

Self-compassion. Self-esteem. Refers to how a person views themselves, both body and mind. Sometimes the most challenging to people.

Examples in literature: Becoming, The Magic Fish, Jane Eyre 

Six Writing Prompts to Master Love

Now that we know what kinds of love can be found. Let’s dive into ways we can write love in our own stories. Here are six writing prompts.

  1. Write about a character who risks everything to pursue their heart’s desires.
  2. Two siblings have a huge fight. One of them says something so hurtful, the other wonders if they’ll ever speak again. How do they make up? 
  3. Think of a famous love story. Rewrite it in a different universe, time period, or setting.
  4. Tell a love story solely through love letters. 
  5. Write about a character who risks everything to pursue their heart’s desires.
  6. How does love help people get through difficult times in their life? 

Take some time and see what happens. Is there one type of love that fits better in a certain type of story? 

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Book Recommendations and a Word from Ocean Vuong

Now that we’ve learned the types of love and have dived into writing it ourselves, let’s take a look at books that further our love on the brain’s agenda. We also have a variety of short stories, poems, and flash fiction on our website. Check it out and get inspiration from our amazing staff writers.

  • If you’re learning to love to write, we recommend looking at The Situation and the Story by Vivian Gornick and Why I Write by George Orwell.
  • If you want friendship that pulls on the heartstrings, we recommend The Elegance of the Hedgehog by Muriel Barbury and When You Were Everything by Ashley Woodfolk.
  • If you want to fall in love with the world, read The Anthropocene Reviewed by John Green and If Cats Disappeared from the World by Genki Kawamura.
  • If you want to feel the love in families read Pachinko by Min Jin Lee and All That She Carried: The Journey of Ashley’s Sack, a Black Family Keepsake by Tiya Alicia Miles.
  • And lastly, if you want love with a hint of obsession read Romeo and Juliet by William Shakespeare and Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier. 

An Outside Word

Another fabulous resource is an article from the LARB, or Los Angeles Review of Books with Ocean Vuong and Viet Thanh Nguyen.

“I think why I fell in love with poetry was that it allowed freedom in articulation. And so, what does it mean when a poem ends without a period? What does that mean for the voice? Was it cut off? Was it unfinished? All of a sudden, the removal of punctuation adds those questions, amplifies those concerns. I believe in one of Whitman’s versions of Leaves of Grass, after “Song of Myself,” he left out the period by accident. I thought that was the best version, because it ends with, “I stop somewhere waiting for you,” with no period. I have to participate in that perioding. I think formal manipulations add meaning the way body adds meaning, the way we sit, the way we talk, our voice, all those pressures are also language.

The way you touch someone, the pressure of the hand on the skin, that’s language. We all know that. I think that, when the poem starts to investigate form — and break form, redefine form — it’s a radical act of reinvention and articulating beyond language. Think of Dickinson, her famous slashes, the dashes. For me, in the context of a patriarchal structure, where all the men around her at that time were silencing her, rejecting her voice and imagination, what does the dash mean? It’s this moment of visceral response, when language is not enough, I have this. This is my attempt to keep speaking. I think she had to knife the page in order to speak again on the left margin. When we look at this form, everything matters. Everything matters about it, and I think poetry allows for that space for me.” 

The Antithesis to Love (Or is it?)

Finally, to end our ‘Love in Literature’ week. We bring you “Hate Poem” by Julie Sheehan. Hate and love are often thought of as two edges of the same sword as they demand intense emotion and this poem illustrates that perfectly. According to Sheehan, she began the poem with the line, “I love you truly” and later switched ‘love’ to ‘hate’. Does this change the way you read the poem? Try channeling each emotion and see the way your writing changes, or stays the same. 

Hate Poem 

By Julie Sheehan

I hate you truly. Truly I do.

Everything about me hates everything about you.

The flick of my wrist hates you.

The way I hold my pencil hates you.

The sound made by my tiniest bones were they trapped in the jaws of a moray eel hates you.

Each corpuscle singing in its capillary hates you.

Look out! Fore! I hate you.

The little blue-green speck of sock lint I’m trying to dig from under my third toenail, left foot, hates you.

The history of this keychain hates you.

My sigh in the background as you pick out the cashews hates you.

The goldfish of my genius hates you.

My aorta hates you. Also my ancestors.

A closed window is both a closed window and an obvious symbol of how I hate you.

My voice curt as a hairshirt: hate.

My hesitation when you invite me for a drive: hate.

My pleasant “good morning”: hate.

You know how when I’m sleepy I nuzzle my head under your arm? Hate.

The whites of my target-eyes articulate hate. My wit practices it.

My breasts relaxing in their holster from morning to night hate you.

Layers of hate, a parfait.

Hours after our latest row, brandishing the sharp glee of hate,

I dissect you cell by cell, so that I might hate each one individually and at leisure.

My lungs, duplicitous twins, expand with the utter validity of my hate, which can never have enough of you,

Breathlessly, like two idealists in a broken submarine.

The Time Machine

“No, you can’t, it’s against the law!” I struggle against the fairies dragging me along, big burly ones too.

“Yes we can sweetheart,” the female one says in a sickly sweet voice. “Article 23 of the new constitution never specifies the use of children in time travel.”
I continue struggling, new constitution be damned. Fairies and their stupid loopholes.

Eventually they drag me through another sparkling clean hallway that smells like listerine and into a spacious, equally white, room.

He’s waiting.

“Good afternoon elf.” He smirks, then waves a piece of paper in my face. “You’ll notice I took care to get a guarantee that this operation wouldn’t be disturbed. But just in case that gold disappears a little too quickly,” he shrugs, “no one will be able to find it.”

I’m still struggling. “I didn’t do anything wrong!”

“You’re right, you were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. This way please.” He gestures to the boxy structure beside him and the fairies drag me closer.

I catch a whiff of a metallic smell and see his name tag: Dr. Schultz.

That same metallic smell radiates from the structure. I know what it is: fairy magic.

“Ready?” Dr. Schultz asks.

“No!” I yell. “Why would you send some kid back? It’s not like I started this stupid war!”

“Not unless you do your job right.”

“What?”

He just smiles. “Good luck!”

The fairies shove me inside the structure and close the door loudly.

I look around. The walls shimmer and the metallic smell is so powerful I gag and cover my mouth and nose.

Then the noise starts:

Whir whir POP, whir whir POP.

Uh oh.

I’ve never actually been in one, but I’ve heard all about these. They’re technically illegal but if those fairies have figured out a loophole to use a teenager in a science experiment, they’ve found a loophole for this.

Those stars-forsaken fairies have used their magic to build a time machine.

I’m in big trouble.

Whir whir POP, whir whir POP.

Dr. Schultz is waiting exactly where I left him. He grins at me. “You did it.”

“You know it took me years to figure out what you meant,” I say.

“I knew you would eventually.” He tilts his head to the side. “So you know why the war had to be fought?”

“It didn’t have to be fought,” I growl. “You set me up.”

“Ah, but I was meant to,” he says, the grin growing larger. “Once I had decided I would create this, I couldn’t stop it.”

“You always could have stopped it. And you didn’t have to send the first kid you found to do your dirty work for you.”

“But I did. I couldn’t just send myself. I had to remain here with the machine.”

I stare at him for a beat. “You were a lot less calculating back then.”

“I’m sure I was.” He stares at the machine behind me for several seconds before saying, “It really is perfect isn’t it?”

“It’s nice to know the ego didn’t go away.” I step out of the cursed machine and begin to walk out of the room. “I trust you won’t get fairies to drag me out as well?”

“I don’t think I’ll need to, will I?”

I shake my head without looking back. Halfway down the hall an explosion rattles the building. I can’t help the laugh that escapes me as I run the rest of the way to the door of the lab and look out, knowing what I’ll see.

Because of course I should’ve known.

No one can change the past, not if they were a part of it all along.

Corner Conversation

Lex huffed. She told herself not to go, but her best friend, Savannah, had convinced her to go. Parties just weren’t her style, and like every other time Savannah had disappeared with some guy as soon as they arrived, leaving Lex standing awkwardly in a corner. All by herself no less, everything about the situation screamed loser. It wouldn’t matter, though, most everyone would be so hammered by the end of the night that they wouldn’t remember what they did, let alone what Lex didn’t do.  

“Having fun?”  Lex looked up from her phone to see who had talked to her. It was rather dark in the corner so she couldn’t make out the face of who she was talking to. She stood from the bean bag chair she had been sulking on.

“Oh ya, loads of fun,” She said sarcastically. She could tell the person she was talking to was male and that he had smiled at her remark. “Have you seen Savannah Hartford recently?”

“I saw her about half an hour ago, she and a few other people were playing spin the bottle,” He answered. “Is something wrong with the party?”

Lex shrugged. “It’s not really my scene. To tell you the truth it’s probably one of the more boring I’ve been to all year.” Lex didn’t know why she was telling this guy this. She was just so irritated at her friend and at least he was talking to her for the moment. She might as well get out all her words while someone was listening to her.

“What? It’s not a good party unless someone falls off the roof?” He teased her. She smiled and laughed a little.

“Were you there the night when Tommy Renders fell?” She asked slightly, pointing at him. She saw him shake his head. “Well, I was. I was sitting on the porch, minding my own business when Savanah called me over to the pool. I had just gotten over there when Tommy yelled ‘cannonball’ and he jumped…”

“Right onto the pavement,” He finishes her sentence chuckling.

“He landed almost on top of me!” Lex said with a laugh. “But to answer your question, yes. I do think someone falling off the roof would add to the entertainment. It would also give me an excuse for Savannah and I to leave.” Before he could answer Savannah stumbled through the door and headed over to Lex.

“Lex, you’ll never who I got for spin the bottle,” She began, but she stopped when she saw who Lex had been talking to. “Hey,” Savannah said coldly to the guy. He nodded at her.

“When you said Savannah, I didn’t know you meant her,” He said to Lex.

“Nice to see you too, Oliver,” Savannah said.

“How did you even get in here?” He asked.

“Wait, you guys know each other?” Lex asked, looking between the two.

“Ya, we do,” Savannah answered. “Oliver was the jerk from second period that tried to put the half dissected frog in my backpack,” Lex spun her head around to look at Oliver.

“You’re that Oliver?” She asked.

“I thought it’d be funny.” He shrugged. Lex squinted at his response. “And again, how did you even get in here? I made sure not to invite you.” Savannah opened mouth, but Lex held up her hand to stop her.

“Wait,” Lex said, “You’re the host?” She asked, pointing at Oliver. He nodded and Lex put her hand down. “Well, now I’m just embarrassed.” Savanah ignored her friend’s statement, electing to ask her about it later.

“Word gets around, and if you were a good host then you would’ve greeted me at the door,” Savannah returned. Oliver scoffed at her.

“If you were a good person then you wouldn’t have shown up in the first place,” Oliver shot back. Lex rolled her eyes at their petty argument, ignoring her embarrassment from a few minutes ago.

“I get it, you two don’t like each other. Can we leave now?” Lex asked her friend. Oliver answered before Savannah had a chance to.

“If Savanah was really your friend she never would’ve brought you here,” He said to Lex. She raised her eyebrows.

“And if you were a decent person we wouldn’t be having this conversation,” Lex said back. “I’m going out to the car, come whenever you are done arguing with this child.”

“Child!” Oliver exclaimed. “She started it.”

“Exactly my point. Have a nice night.” Lex raised her hand in mock goodbye, but Oliver moved toward her.

“We’re done, I promise.” He smiled innocently at her.  

Savannah scoffed and rolled her eyes. “I’m going back outside, Lex. Let me know if you need anything.” Savannah spun on her heel and took a long drink before walking through a doorway and out of view.

“Did you need something?” Lex asked.

Oliver offered his hand to her. “Would you like a tour of the grounds milady?” He said in a bad English accent. Lex narrowed her eyes while fighting a grin. “I promise we won’t go anywhere near the roof.”

Lex rolled her eyes as she took his hand. “As long as the tour stops by the kitchen, I heard there was pizza.”

Oliver pulled her hand until it was resting in the crook of his elbow. “Whatever will make the lady happiest.”

Lex smiled. Maybe this party wasn’t as bad as she thought.

Fight

There are three reasons I don’t fight demons: they’re rich, they’re arrogant, and they always, always cheat. Without fail. 

“Lyric,” says a voice behind me. I pause and then resume putting one foot in front of the other.

“What’s the bet on me today?” 

“Thirty gold. And a few silvers thrown in by the more hesitant bidders.”

I roll my eyes. “Am I allowed weapons?”

“No physical weapons, but magic is allowed.” 

Of course a demon would want to use magic. “What’s up with this one? Needs a reality check?”

A pale form comes even with me, matching my stride. “More like an ego boost. Falling from favor with your social circle must be a huge blow.” Sora can’t withhold their sarcasm and their voice practically drips with it.

“Oh well, what can they do but go fight in thieves’ circles when they need to release their emotions,” I sigh, pretending to be serious. My face gives me away.

“Why’d you agree to fight it this time?” they ask me. 

I shrug, trying to be nonchalant. If Sora realizes there’s more to it they don’t press. Instead they run a barely visible hand through their barely visible hair.

“Don’t tell me you’re worried about my odds?” I glance over at them in time to catch a concerned expression.

“More like worried about your change in standards. You know Stefan would have taken it in a heartbeat.”

“Well there’s someone who needs an ego check,” I say, avoiding their question.

“Yes, I suppose so…”

Before they can take another step, I whirl and grab hold of Sora’s hand. I’m always surprised how solid it is despite its see-through appearance. “Cut to the important stuff. What am I getting into?”

They glare at me for a full two seconds before giving in. “This one’s royalty.”

I let go. “Of course it is.” So it’s super rich, super arrogant, and will cheat more than play by any kind of rules.

“Not super high up. Some offspring of a cousin of the king’s. But still. Royalty.” A pause. “You picked a great time to switch tactics.”

I don’t answer and we continue walking down the corridor. The thieves guild is a large building, all gothic stone structure and spades carved everywhere. Somehow the architect managed to make it look larger on the inside than outside. Perfect for those who want to avoid the law. As much as the decree of a bunch of wealthy, egotistical cheaters can count as the law. 

The closer we get to the center of the building the more black-cloaked figures we pass and the more Sora inches closer to me. Just because no one else can see the spirit doesn’t mean they wouldn’t be able to feel them. “You’re gonna have to stop haunting me for at least thirty minutes,” I mutter under my breath.

“It is so cramped in there Lyric I swear to our stupid demon leaders―” 

I grip the pendant at my neck, whisper a few words in demonic, and Sora is out of sight.

Then, without anyone’s presence to chide me for my hypocrisy, I whisper a few words of prayer. Sure I don’t fight demons because they’re horrible. But I also never lose, and you never know exactly what combination of awfulness you’re going to get with those things.

Especially not me.

My footsteps carry me deeper into the building until finally I emerge into the beating heart of the place. A large ring is barely visible through the crowds of people in the center of a cavernous room, complete with gilded domed ceiling, tiled floors, and pillars lining the walls. Instead of fencing around the edge of the circle of sand there is simply a shimmer to the air around it. This will be a magic fight, so therefore the magic must be contained. 

“This is such a bad idea,” I mutter to myself, pushing through the throng, head down so as not to attract too much attention before the fight.

Finally I make it to the edge of the flickering barrier, where Kodiak is waiting by his huge bracket, which sits on an easel beside him. In one hand is a piece of chalk and in the other is a sack which he holds up when he catches a glimpse of me. “Could be all yours in a matter of minutes,” he grins. “Unless, of course, it wins.”

“It’s not going to win,” I say through clenched teeth. 

“Of course not.” Kodiak gestures with the money bag arm towards the ring. “Whenever you’re ready.”

I walk through the barrier, feeling a tingling sensation as I do. When I reach the center of the ring my hands dart to my sides to check for weapons that aren’t there, leaving me feeling uncomfortably exposed. Then, having nothing else to do to ignore the stares and chatter coming from around me, I flick sparks between my fingers, the only sign of any anxiety about the upcoming fight.

I don’t even have to look to know when the demon enters the room. Instantly, any conversation is halted and everyone goes still. It’s been ten years and still no one quite knows how to react among demons. Not that anyone did much to stop them from ruling us.

The demon crosses the barrier and comes to a stop in front of me. Finally, I look up and look it in the eye. It stares back in challenge.

One of the things that makes demons so terrifying is how similar they look to humans. You might never know you were dealing with one until it decided to tell you. This one is dressed all in black, dark hair slicked back and a glint in its eyes. 

“What are you here to fight for?” I ask, letting a sneer come into my voice. “I thought demons were supposed to be all high and mighty.”

The demon stares back haughtily. Then it tilts its head to the side, eyes on Sora’s pendant. “I thought you were supposed to be too.”

I step back slightly, eyes widening. “How do you―”

Instead of an answer I get a punch to the gut. Suddenly feeling like spitting fire, I dodge its next attack and return the punch. My fist collides with something much harder than flesh and I fight the urge to roll my eyes. There goes the no armor rule. In any case, I’m surprised the demon didn’t begin with a spell, but I’m not about to provoke it with one of my own.

It grunts slightly and before I know it, wind slams me back into the ground. I’m back on my feet in seconds, hurling a streak of energy at it. The demon simply holds up a hand and the energy is blown off course, forcing the audience to duck, awestruck. I’m not sure how many of them have actually seen me use my magic before.

“Seriously, why are you here?” I ask. “Don’t royals have anyone to beat up around the palace?”

No response, just another blast of air in my direction. Can’t be too powerful of a royal if this is all it can do. 

But strangely enough, instead of trying to hurt me, the demon simply keeps trying to knock me to the ground. Why? 

Instead of standing my ground, I let the next gust knock me flat. The crowd boos. The demon walks over. “Can’t you fight better than that?”

I don’t answer, taking advantage of its proximity to pull its arm down, pulling myself up and it down. Caught off guard, it falls, and I put a boot on its chest to keep it from getting back up. “Seems I could ask the same of you.”

But once again I don’t get an answer. The audience is cheering around me, clueless to any of our somewhat one-sided conversation. The demon‘s eyes are narrowed at me, full of suspicion. “Who are you?”

“If you’re not going to answer my questions, why would I answer yours?”

Still no answer. Instead, in one lightning quick movement, it reaches up and shoves the fabric of my sleeve up. To the rowdy drunks the mark on my wrist means nothing. But to the demon…It lets go. “You’re—you’re really—”

“What? I’m really what?” I ask in challenge, shoving my face closer to the demon’s.

No answer. Instead it stares at me, eyes narrowed, suspicious and fearful.

 After a few seconds, I lose patience. I shove it down and walk out of the ring, grabbing the sack from a somewhat bemused Kodiak, refusing to acknowledge any of what just happened.

It’s back the next day. 

“Why didn’t you leave?” Sora asks, after briefing me on the fight.

“I can’t,” I mutter.

“But it might figure out who you are.”

“That’s exactly why I can’t leave.”

“Lyric, you need to tell me why you’re doing this. I can’t help you if you don’t.”

I glare at the floor for a moment. “My mother sent it.”

“Anyone could tell you that. Even more reason to cut our losses and get out of here.”

“Kodiak has let me know that that won’t be an option again.”

“He did not.”

“He did.”

“We’ll find a new job somewhere else then.”

“We both know my mother will capture us on our way out of the city.”

A beat, then: “Yeah I suppose we do.”

“So we’re in agreement then?”

Sora gives a stiff nod. “But I swear to our somewhat questionable rulers, if you die I’m going to chase after you and slap you as hard as I possibly can for being an idiot.”

“Love you too Sora,” I say, then summon them back into my pendant.

When I get to the ring, the demon is waiting for me.

“Hello again,” it says, once I’ve joined it in the center. The crowd, larger than last night, is hushed, breathless, unable to quite make out what we’re saying but eager to witness the beginning of the fight.

“Hello.”

“You agreed to fight me again.”

“You’re talkative tonight.”

“Maybe I want answers.”

“Who says you’ll get them?”

Its mouth twitches in some semblance of amusement. “I’ll get them.”

“I like your confidence.” I send crackling energy down my body, across the ground, and up its form, most likely only jolting it slightly, but its hair stands on end. The audience makes awed noises. Magic isn’t something everyone sees on a daily basis. 

Well, most people.

“You think energy is powerful?” it asks me.

“So far all you’ve shown me is a few gusts of wind, so I wouldn’t be talking.”

The demon knocks me flat. It walks over and stands over me, a glint in its eyes. “A few gusts of wind?”

I electrocute it with all the strength in my body. “Yeah, something like that.”

The glint is gone as I get up, weight on my toes, ready for anything. “How did someone like you end up here?” it asks, then throws a punch. I dodge and land a punch in its side. No armor today. Interesting.

“Why would I trust a demon with anything about me?”

I dodge the wrong way and it knocks me to the ground. “Why wouldn’t you?”

I yank it down with me, using it as leverage for me to get back up. “Oh I don’t know, maybe because your kind took over, established a lawless government, and currently acts with the least amount of morals of any creature I’ve ever met.”

My kind? You’re one to talk,” it says from the ground as the crowd hollers at it to get up or give in.

“You don’t know me.”

“I know enough.”

The next thing I know it has me wrapped in some kind of wind cocoon and I can’t move an inch. It gets up and right up close to me, inspecting my face. 

After a moment―”What’s your name?”

I stay silent for a few moments, squirming against the invisible restraint, but then, “Lyric,” slips out.

The glint returns. “Karel.” Then it steps back and throws something on the floor. When the smoke clears, it’s gone.

Cheater.

The crowd agrees with me and I grab the bag from Kodiak.

“Lyric, no. He’s cheated twice. And you told him your name.”

“It’s not my real name. And I’ve gotten the money both times.” 

“That doesn’t mean you’ll get it again. It’s playing at something larger,” Sora protests.

“Of course it’s playing at something larger. Mother isn’t an idiot.”

I get an eye roll for that. “But she’s not unbeatable.”

“Maybe.”

“So…”

I smile. “I’m still fighting it.”

“Lyric…”

“Don’t worry so much, I have a plan.”

Karel doesn’t look the least bit fazed by all the booing that’s coming from the audience today. They don’t like cheaters. I could’ve told them it was coming though. Haven’t they ever met demons before?

“You’ve cheated twice,” I point out. 

“You’ve gotten the money both times,” it says, arms crossed.

“Why do you think I’m here right now?”

“Yes, we both know what matters most to you.”

I raise an eyebrow. “Oh yeah? Well then, if money matters the most to me, what matters the most to you? Cheating your way out of a fight? Why are you here? And why do you keep coming back?”

“Do you really need the answer to that question?”

“Would I ask if I didn’t?”

All I get is a smirk as the audience clamors for us to start already.

I anticipate the first blast of wind, but get buffeted by the second. 

“These fights are getting a bit repetitive don’t you think?” I ask, ducking a punch.

“The audience sure seems to think so,” it responds, dodging out of the way of an energy blast. Indeed, the cheering was more muted and I could swear the bet numbers were down. 

“Kodiak isn’t going to let these fights keep going like this,” I mutter to myself. “He’s going to want more variation to keep the crowds up.”

“Then I suggest you figure out what I’m up to before our fight ends today,” it says. “Or are you just going to rely on your little ghost?”

I’m not sure how it knows about Sora but I don’t acknowledge that. “How am I supposed to find out what you’re up to when you won’t answer my questions?”

“A question for a question then.”

“How am I supposed to know you won’t leave once you’ve found out what you’re digging for?”

“Who says I’m digging?”

“I do,” I say, panting slightly. “Why are you here?”

“Family issue. Why did you break your policy to fight me?”

“Call it a whim. What happened to make you fall from grace?”

“Who said I fell from grace?”

“My ‘little ghost’ as you put it.”

“Hmm.”

All of a sudden it pauses, eyeing me. The booing resumes full volume. “Why did you leave?”

“Leave where?” I ask, feigning confusion. My pulse skips. 

“You know where.”

“Do I?”

“Oh please. You can’t expect me to believe I’d fall for your whole thief, underground fighter charade.” It steps closer to me, eyes narrowed. I clench my fist, energy building in my palm. The audience goes quiet, perhaps sensing the unusual tension in this fight. 

All of a sudden Karel grabs the chain around my neck. “My mother was the one to give this to you, Calyra. Don’t think you could rewrite your history so easily.”

“Maybe not,” I hiss. “But I can rewrite my future.” It glares at me. “I know they’re using you. Did they tell you the reason I left?”

It doesn’t answer.

“I thought so.” I grab it by the collar, pulling it close enough it’s the only one that can hear me when I hiss, “You tell my mother I have no interest in being heir. You be heir for all I care. Just leave me alone.”

“Then why did you pay attention to the note she sent? Why’d you agree to fight me?”

“To send a message you idiot. And the money. I hope you didn’t think it was anything more noble. Or the exact opposite of noble considering what you want me to go back to. I mean, please, do you really care if I come back or not? We hadn’t even said three words to each other before.”

The look in Karel’s eyes proves I’m right. 

“You won’t be seeing me again,” I say, backing up slowly as Kodiak begins to walk over to either end the fight or restart it.

Karel takes a step toward me. “Maybe not. But your family will never stop.”

Sora was probably right. I shouldn’t have fought this one. Allowed it to fuel the fire that keeps them searching for me. 

I don’t respond, turning my back on my opponent. It is a clear sign and the audience picks it up clear as day. Some even gesture wildly at Karel, for him to attack while I’m not looking at him. When the “boo”s resume I smile to myself and step out of the ring, facing Kodiak. 

“I’m done with that one.”

“Good,” he says. “The audience is too.” A beat. “You’ll be back tomorrow for your usual?”

I nod and walk away, already spotting Sora’s flickering form in the corridor. I’m going to get a talking to but they’ll help me stay hidden. Just like they always do. 

I should have added a reason I don’t fight demons. They’re rich, they’re arrogant, they always cheat, and I want nothing more to do with them.

Fluffy Affections

Fluffy Boy

Cute fluffy boy
Playing with yarn of a toy
As your clean white hair rustle with the wind
As you bear brown little markings look like a marshmallow.

Cute Fluffy boy
How carefree must you be
To sleep in the middle of the corridor where the humans walk.
To loaf with such ease
To sploot with such grace

Cute Fluffy Boy
You close your eyes.
You smile as much as you could.
As my hand strokes the fur on your little head
You slow blink at me after I am done.
And my heart flutters.
But I know I am not your chosen family.
But I know I am not the one you will sleep and cuddle with.

And indeed, after a minute, you run off to another corner of the sidewalk where you can sleep alone.

I see the ball of fluff goes back to his lovely little slumber.
Amongst the sidewalk with birds, trees and potted plants.
As the rays of sunbathe you.
How blissful

I imagine when you wake up and run home.

You ask your family for snacks.
They gave you all the yummy
Just look at that tummy

You are free to sleep, free to eat and free to clean.

So unconstrained by the unseen chains of the bipedal.
So unrestricted by any paper laws that hover over heads
So unbound from the cuffs for two legs.

Our chase for money will never end,
They say money has four legs, just like you.
Perhaps just like you, money will elude our gestures for affections.
Perhaps just like you, only a small minority will experience your affections.

The Story of Great-Great-Grandmother Gisele

When my grandmother was a young woman, she sold emotions. Right there on that very street corner, you see? Where the sign post and the lamp meet. They were usually bottled, of course, by the time they reached her table, and she would line them up one by one, in neat little rows. The woman she sold them for was from one of the most powerful families in the city. And let me tell you, that woman would not tolerate any mistakes. Her network was small, efficient, and ruthless. After a few decades, few others dared to go into the business.

My grandmother, Gisele, she noticed this, she watched, she listened, but she kept quiet. The biggest rule was to never, ever, go against Madam Sage’s wishes. Until one day.

That day a breeze blew in, cold but soft against Gisele’s cheek. Surprised, she turned to face the direction the wind had blown in from, unused to anything but the oppressive heat of the city.

When she turned back around, a stranger was standing at her table.

Gisele startled, for she hadn’t heard this person walk up to the table. Nor did she recognize him, another surprise, for in her small domain those who bought emotions were frequent customers. The baker from around the corner who bought happiness to cope with the loss of his wife. The couple from her building who bought love in the hopes of curing the growing rift between them. And of course the kids who bought the small bottles with their allowance and dared others to drink them.

This person was not like the others. He was tall and narrow, perhaps around twenty, a long coat covering almost all of his body. Short black hair and black eyes peered at her curiously, and she couldn’t tell for the life of her where he could have come from. Certainly not the Villages…perhaps the Outer Ring? Another city?

“Do you sell emotions for Madam Sage?” the person asked.

“And you are…?” Gisele asked instead of answering. She knew better than to give a stranger information about Madam Sage.

“A newcomer.”

“Yes I could tell that.” Who did he think she was? An amateur? Emotion-selling was a lucrative position and it required the best. Not to mention emotion-stealing.

A smile quirked the edges of his lips. “Then perhaps you know who I am?”

Gisele stayed quiet.

The smile increased. “No? Has Sage not told you about us?”

“Can’t say she has,” she bit out. Something about this person ruffled her edges.
He made her want to clutch all of her bottles close and never let them go.

The stranger considered this for a few moments. Then he stuck out a hand. “Roberto. It’s a pleasure to meet you.”

Gisele made him wait for several moments, but when the hand didn’t so much as waver, she stuck out her own as well. “Gisele.”

“Hm.”

“What?” Gisele asked, annoyance growing by the minute.

“I didn’t expect you to tell me your name,” Roberto said.

This did absolutely nothing to relieve the tension gripping Gisele’s body. Or the
overwhelming suspicion. “And why not?”

“You’re well-known.”

“Excuse me? I operate a small business on a street corner.” Unless…“Did Madam Sage send you?”

“No, not her.” A hint of annoyance flashed across his face. Gisele felt some satisfaction at this. Could she try…? But no. He was already strange enough, what if he could sense it?

“Then who did?”

“Matilda.”

“Matilda who?” The longer this conversation went on the more tempted she was to try. Underneath her stand, Gisele gripped a fresh bottle in her hand.

Roberto sighed. “Matilda Van Leer. She owns a business in contention with yours. One of the few remaining thanks to Sage’s corruption. Madam Sage isn’t who you think she is.”

Who was he to say? Gisele didn’t spend all that much time thinking about Sage, but this seemed a bit biased coming from her proclaimed competition. But if this was going to work…

“Then who is she?”

Roberto stepped closer. “She manipulates you and everyone to her wishes. This whole emotion-selling business, it’s a ruse.”

“I won’t claim she’s a good person, but it’s just a business.”

“You really haven’t seen anything that worries you?”

Gisele almost rolled her eyes. “I work in the same place every day.” If he would just step a little…There. Now, which one?

Roberto’s eyes flicked to the table. No, that wouldn’t do. “Wait,” Gisele said. “I have heard some things.”

Roberto made a motion encouraging her to keep talking.

Underneath the table, her hand made a twisting, beckoning motion. When he began to look impatient, she clenched her fist, the bottle tight in her other hand, imagining the mystery being yanked from his core, and watched Roberto’s face—shift. When she looked down, midnight blue Mystery shimmered in its bottle. With a grin, she corked it.

Gisele looked up. “Who are you really and what do you have against Madam Sage?”

Roberto didn’t answer. Instead, he looked frustrated. “How on earth did Matilda think this was going to work?”

Gisele’s own frustration bubbled up at the lack of information. “Don’t make me take another.”

Madam Sage wouldn’t be happy with this. She preferred discreet. Not that Roberto was making any of this easy to be discreet.

Sadness flickered across Roberto’s face and Gisele was almost disappointed at the lack of fight. With the loss of Mystery, he seemed almost flat, a two-dimensional person. Gisele supposed it was a blessing and a curse to be so good at what she did.

But how had he known about her skill? Gisele puzzled this over, distracted, until Roberto reached out and snatched the Mystery bottle, bringing it to his lips.

“No!” Gisele cried out. “You can’t—“ The sudden onslaught of a returning emotion was usually fatal.

Roberto swiped his mouth, a grin spreading across his face, and tossed the bottle back at her. Gisele barely caught it right in front of her face, then looked at Roberto from around it. “How did you—“

“You think it’s the first time one of you has tried to take my emotions?”

Gisele had no answer. All she could do was stare.

The grin only grew. “You need to come with me.” Roberto said.

“What about my emotions?” Gisele asked, gesturing at her display. “I can’t leave now.”

There was no way she was getting fired for this.

“Oh, but you can.” That was the only response she got before he snapped his fingers and her table was gone.

“What did you just do?!”

“You can have it back later. Come with me.”

“No.”

“Listen. Matilda’s business is faltering, and she’s desperate. If I don’t take you to her my job will be in jeopardy. Now, you don’t have to accept her offer, but I would appreciate it very much if you would come with me.”

Fuming and bewildered, Gisele nodded, and followed him across the cobbled street, then two blocks over, where the elevated train screeched its way across the rusting tracks.

“We are not going on one of those.” She stopped and crossed her arms. When Roberto turned around, it was with a bemused expression on his face.

“You’re afraid of trains?”

She preferred to think of it as wary. Either way, he didn’t need to know. “I can’t just leave my family without telling them anything. And there’s no way I’m paying for a ticket.”

“Right.” He turned back around. “I’ll pay for the ticket.” Apparently he hadn’t bought the somewhat blatant lie about her nonexistent family. Not much of a surprise there. Most stealers didn’t have anyone close to them.

Roberto led her into the station where he paid for the tickets, then onto the train, snatching at the sleeve of her coat to prevent her from running away from it.

Three stops later, Roberto stood, and Gisele had no choice but to step down with him onto the platform.

All around them metal shone bright, the platform polished and clean.

“Oh wonderful,” she muttered. “Your employer is wealthy.”

“I suppose you could say that. But you wouldn’t be entirely correct these days,” Roberto said, and walked down the stairs.

Some blocks later they arrived in front of a stately building, all carved stone. A typical wealthy person’s dwelling, Gisele thought. Roberto opened the door, dragged her in, and without warning, shouted, “Matilda!”

Gisele pulled out of his grasp as the door closed behind them.

A minute later a woman descended the impressive, albeit creaky, staircase curving its way up to the second floor. Her face was drawn into a carefully neutral expression, but upon seeing the two of them, something like hope squeezed in. “Is this her?”

“This is the one. But we don’t have a good chance. She doesn’t have any issue with Sage.”

“Well, I’m glad you managed to get her, dear.”

Gisele didn’t like the sound of that at all. “What do you mean, ‘get’ me?”

“The way I see it, you can’t go about working for that old hag any longer,” Matilda said.

“That old hag has kept me out of poverty for years now.” Gisele frowned. “I can make my own life decisions thank you very much.”

“But what if we could make you a better deal? Not many people have your talent.”

“I’m aware.”

Matilda almost appeared amused for a moment. She looked at Roberto, who gave her a knowing look. “Well dear, what if you came to work for us instead of Sage? You’d get twice the pay and wouldn’t have to live with the guilt of working for a corrupt system.”

“If it even is corrupt,” she muttered. Then she said louder, sticking her chin up. “Personally I’m perfectly happy how I am.”

“Stubborn too,” Matilda sighed. “Would you at least hear us out?”

“Do I have a choice?”

“Not particularly,” Roberto said.

Gisele scowled.

Matilda smiled. “In that case, follow me.” She led Gisele to her office, a stately room that would’ve been made much more impressive with a fresh coat of paint and a new rug.

Once they’d all sat down, Matilda began. “If you come to work with me, not only will I pay you more, you’ll get off that street corner. If you help me succeed, earn enough profit, you might even end up helping me run the business.”

Gisele sat and pretended to think it through, but inside her head, the first seeds of an idea had begun to take root.

Grandmother never told me in detail what happened during those next two years—told me her mind got fuzzy. The next thing she always said was this: Matilda’s offer was too good to resist. But what she also said was to never take offers at face value. Remember children: it takes time for the fine things in life.

Her story usually picked up two years later on the eve of her eighteenth birthday. She’d worked hard and climbed her way up in the company. There was a party, I believe, to celebrate her one day coming into the money she’d helped Matilda earn—lots of it.

She always described the feeling of sliding silk gloves onto her arms, anticipation building as she picked her way down the refurbished stairs of Matilda’s house and into the dining room, careful not to trip over her skirts.

Roberto smiled as she entered by his side and she couldn’t resist an eye roll.
“I don’t see what the big deal is all about,” she leaned in to whisper.

“Yes you do.”

She pretended to consider a moment. “Yes I do.”

Matilda was near the head of the table, stern as always, her eyes fixed on Gisele’s.

“You have a lot to be proud of,” Roberto whispered in Gisele’s ear. “No matter what happens, remember that. And remember what you’ll owe me.”

It was a difficult thing for Gisele to hide the twisted grin that wanted desperately to split her face but somehow she managed, keeping her smile small and docile. “I will.”

Matilda, wearing her own finery, reached down towards the table and clinked her wine glass with a fork. The hall silenced within a few moments.

“To my niece, Gisele, and her future fortune!” Glasses were raised. Gisele smiled and inwardly wished they’d gone with a relation a little farther off.

She walked closer and found her place at the table, closing her eyes briefly and feeling all the emotions swirling around her. She felt many: happiness, elation (presumably more from the wine than anything related to Gisele), jealousy, and finally—most importantly—loyalty.

It was such a two-sided coin, loyalty.

Matilda indicated everyone should take their places as well. When everyone was assembled, the company sat.

The dinner was served, and then, finished, the guests moved from the dining room to the ballroom.

Gisele eyed the door to the kitchens. A nearby server gave her a nod. Gisele returned it.

Matilda really should’ve been nicer to her staff.

With another glance at Roberto, across the room and caught up in a dance, Gisele crossed the room to where Matilda was deep in conversation with a wealthy businessman. “I’m looking forward to our future ventures,” he was saying. In other words, he couldn’t wait to be provided with his first shipment of emotions. It seemed he had decided to branch out a little.

Gisele smiled as the pair noticed her, inclining her head to both of them.

“Gisele, my dear,” Matilda said, pride in her tight smile. Gisele clutched her wine glass a bit harder. “Mr. Rosen, have you had the chance to meet my lovely niece?”

“I have not,” he said, bending to kiss Gisele’s free hand. He straightened and glanced back at Matilda just as Gisele squeezed her glass a bit too hard…

It shattered in her now closed fist. An invisible river poured into Gisele, making her feel lightheaded and giddy, but she shoved it away, down through her fingertips.

“Oh my, that’s—Matilda!” Mr. Rosen turned from the mess now surrounding Gisele to his business partner, collapsed on the floor, motionless.

Gisele bent over her, frantically checking her pulse. It beat slowly, decreasing by the second.

“Someone, help!” she cried. “Please, help!”

All around her, people muttered, whispered, questions. “What’s happened? Who can help her?”

Of course, no one stepped in to help, unwilling to risk the possibility of dirtying their evening dress.

“Is there no one?” Gisele wailed as Matilda’s pulse slowed further.

“Where’s the staff?” Rosen yelled. Everyone looked around, just as confused as he was at the lack of black-and-white-clad figures.

Gisele could hear Roberto yelling, squeezing through people to get to her.

Just as he parted the last few, she raised her head and glanced into the crowd, catching a familiar eye. A beat later Gisele pointed, yelling, “Her! It was her! Madam Sage is here, someone get her!”

With that, everyone leapt to their feet to grab the woman standing amongst them, whose expression melted from satisfaction to unbridled fury. “What have you done, you foolish girl?”

“I haven’t done anything.” Gisele trembled with false rage, clenching her fists. She had no intention of allowing Sage to stage her coup tonight, despite what she’d promised her. “She’s clearly had her emotions drained. I should know. And who else but her fiercest competitor?”

Two upper-class officers in the crowd grabbed her as everyone clamored to get a look.

Distantly, Gisele felt Roberto behind her, attempting to be a reassuring presence. She turned to look at him. “Is there anything we can do?”

Roberto watched Madam Sage being dragged out, now strangely limp, with hatred. “No. No one can handle all of their emotions being ripped from them so suddenly. Not even you or I. Haven’t I mentioned that before?”

As he helped her up, she said softly, “You get a fourth.”

“A third at least. I could have you arrested right here and now.”

“Fine.”

Late that night, Gisele snuck out of the building, tracing her way through back alleys and darkened streets, hood up to conceal her face.

Some minutes later she reached a more decrepit building, one that seemed to have fallen into disrepair in recent years. The front was a store, but in the back, a factory loomed large.

Gisele snuck into its side, looking both ways before she entered.

A single light gleamed from the office overlooking the main floor. Gisele climbed the stairs and let herself in.

The server from the ball—unimportant, but significant to her game of staying close to each business—sat behind the desk, inspecting several sheets of paper. She looked up as the door clicked shut. “Gisele.”

“I believe you owe me those documents.”

“For double crossing everyone and taking it all? Please tell me I get a cut.”

“Ten percent. And the highest paying job in my new monopoly,” Gisele said, finally allowing her grin to spread across her face.

“Very well. It’s all yours then. How you expect to cover it up I’ll never know. Madam Sage won’t stay quiet.”

Gisele’s smile widened as she reached into her pockets, holding up two bottles swirling with many, many emotions. “Oh, but she will.”

When my grandmother was young, she sold emotions, and she took them too. She worked hard to earn the trust of two powerful women, and then took over both of their companies.

Remember children: to ensure your success you must play your cards just as well as your great-great-grandmother played hers. Your skill is important, yes, and it may make you feel powerful, but the real key? That is your mind. Use it to come out on top.

Shackles of the Past

The past, I cannot stop thinking of it.
The cast the bounds my foot
The chains to the people that don’t give a hoot.
About my heart and my soul.
Cast it in the fire, as I should have yesterday
As I should put my eyes on the future.

The future, as they like to say, sunlight is ahead
But how would you know sunlight if all you ever seen is the dark

The past bounds me, their chains dig into my bones
The past holds me, the steel rings whenever I tug against it,
That I cannot break it.
That there is no letting go.

I pick my legs up and run.
Only to be lugged by that rusty, steel ball bearing.
Only to have my bones hurt on me.

I sigh, and I grab my bounded leg.
I wish I had the strength to break those chains that hold me
I wish I can jump in the water, let go and swim
Be free.

They say a yacht is the instrument of freedom.
They say sailing gives no boredom.
Well, I’ll have a big ship.
With buffet of ocean’s catch
With cocktails of exotic drinks
With the breath of the freshest breeze.

But only, only if I can get this chain off me.

Snowday

I look out my window and smile at the white blanket that has covered my city while I slept. I reached for my phone to check my notifications to find that school had been canceled for the day. Texts started to fill the group chat and before I knew it, my house had become the designated meeting area. Groaning, I slithered out of bed onto my cold floor. I had less than twenty minutes before my friends started to come in from down the street.

Once I was dressed I shuffled down the hallway and poured myself a cup of coffee. My mom sat at the counter while scrolling through her phone.

“Good Morning, Darcy.” My mom looked up from her phone. “Any plans for your day off?” A loud knock came from the front door before I could answer. My mom smirked and went back to her phone.

“Open the door, get out here,” Raelynn calls through the door. I run to the entryway and throw on my jacket. I open the door to see Raelynn and Evan standing on my front porch. Their siblings were behind them talking on my lawn.  

“What do you guys want?” I asked like I didn’t already know. It was our tradition to have a snowball fight every first snow day of the school year. You could call it childish, but a tradition is a tradition and Raelynn never let us skip it.

“Oh, I don’t know,” Raelynn answered back to me, just as sarcastic. I walk out the door and shut it behind me. “Your brother is still asleep?” She asked, noticing my brother had failed to make an appearance.

I shrug. “Probably, he prefers to sleep in on his snow days, like a normal person.” Evan smirks in my direction, Raelynn nods in understanding.

“We thought he might bail on us, so we recruited my new neighbor. I think you two might have math class together,” Evan says as we rounded the corner to the back of my house. I had the biggest backyard so naturally we gathered here.

“Who?” I ask. Evan motions past me and I turn around. Right there in the middle of my backyard was Aiden.

I grab Evan by the arm and pull him closer so he could hear me whisper in his ear. “He’s your new neighbor? The one you called cool the other day?” I hissed. Evan widens his eyes at me and nods.

“Is something wrong?” Raelynn asks. I take a deep breath and release Evan. I put on a fake smile and look at Raelynn.

“Nope, everything is just peachy,” I say through clenched teeth. Raelynn’s face lights up and she claps her hands.

“Perfect,” She says, then turns away from me. “Okay, everyone line up. Darcy and I will be captains today.” The troops fell in line against the back of my house. There were eight of us in total. Raelynn had three younger siblings and Evan had one. All ranging in ages of four to thirteen.

Raelynn and I walked over to face them.

“Rock, paper, scissors?” Raelynn asks. I nod. We fought, rock beat scissors. I lost. Raelynn picks first.

“Rachel.” She picks Evans’ younger sister first.

“Hardy.” I picked Raelynn’s youngest brother. Raelynn picks her oldest sister, and I pick her middle sister. I was now down to Evan and Aiden. My stomach dropped. I knew who she’d pick and that left me with a less desirable option. Raelynn and Evan weren’t officially a thing, but they definitely should be. As the nerds would say, ‘I ship it’.  

“Evan,” Raelynn says with a smile. Evan beams and walks over to her side and Aiden walks over to me.

“Hi,” He says with a wicked grin. I give him a glare.

“Hi yourself,” I say back.

“Five minutes to strategize.” Raelynn says to me. Her and her team walk over to the left side of the backyard.

“So, a snowball fight,” Aiden tries to make conversation.

“Yes,” I answered shortly. I look over to my group. “Okay, team. They may have Evan and Karly, but we have Hardy, the official softball pitcher of P.E class. They don’t stand a chance.” I say. They grin and Hardy pretends to flex the muscles he didn’t have. “Today our strategy is simple: throw snowballs like your life depended on it, and don’t get hit. This isn’t dodgeball guys, this is war!” My two youngest troops yelled. “Now go make some ammo, I need to talk to my subordinate,” I say. They give another yell and run off to the right.

“Subordinate?” Aiden asks, eyebrows raised. I looked at him sideways and then turned to him.

“You heard me.” I crossed my arms.

Aiden holds up his hand. “Are you still mad about the other day?” He asks.

“You mean when you dropped your entire coffee on my lap during lunch? Yes, yes, I am still mad.” Him and his friends had been running through the cafeteria. Aiden had been dodging a half-peeled orange when he stepped on a water puddle and fell right into my lap. Iced coffee had splashed across my shirt and jeans. What had made me upset wasn’t that my shirt had been white and was completely ruined, or the fact that I would have to change my entire outfit, it was when he had stood up and he and his entire brigade had started laughing at me.

“It was an accident,” he says like he would to an angry toddler.

“So you’ve said, but what I haven’t got was an apology.”

He opens his mouth to say something I’m sure will make the situation worse, but I close my eyes and shake my head. Sometimes I wonder about him. “Go,” I say to him pointing to Harley. He walks away and I follow him. I kneel and start making snowballs. Aiden kneels in front of me. I glance up at him and our eyes meet. He holds up a finger and starts to shape the snow.  

He grins at me and holds something out in his palm. I look down and bite the inside of my cheek. In his hand is a small duck made out of snow. He holds it out to me.

“Does that count as an apology?” He asks. I look back up at him. “Come on, Darcy. Can’t we be friends?” I give the realest glare I can muster and snatch the creation out of his hand.

“This is not over,” I say to him while setting the duck aside. He grins and starts making normal snowballs. I sigh and start to copy him.

Sweet spirit at the front desk

Its tough on you.
Handling all the paper
Talking to the caller
Appeasing the cussing customer.


A bag filled with mails,
Yet none of them are for you,
To give u respite
To give you comfort
To tell you “you did a great job”
To tell you “you are too precious for this”
To tell you “you are a treasure.”
To tell you “you are too much of a sweetheart for this.”


A phone full of calls,
None of them to tell you,
“Thank you for your help.”
“Good job.”
“Happy weekends.”


A box filled with food,
Yet you gave them out to your office colleagues when the canteen runs out of food.
And none for yourself…
Who has thanked you, kind soul?


Not that sweaty, stinky supplier who ate all your oreos,
Not Jerry from systems admin, who ate your cup noodles
And definitely not Jess from accounting, who drank your sweet tea.


I wanna say we are kindred spirits.
But who am I kidding, we do different jobs, and have different hours.
Oh, if only I could be with you for longer.


But who am I kidding, you are all alone in your duty…


But, I know, oh I have to know,
Customers, users, suppliers, no matter the label, wear bullshittery and embody assholery.
I know the likes of these assholes at what I do too.


We are kindred after all,
Despite how different our job labels are
Despite our differences in duties,
We know how rotten entitlement sounds like.
We know how awful it is, to show grace and help to the undeserving.


Sometimes, I see your face puffy,
And your eyes all red,
But you still smile through it all


If only I could hug you so tight.


To give u respite
To give you comfort
To tell you “you did a great job”
To tell you “you are too precious for this”
To tell you “you are a treasure.”
To tell you “you are too much of a sweetheart for this.”


Any broken piece you have, come back together.


And I shall protect your heart, so none will scar you, nor your sweet spirit anymore.
You are too kind of a soul for this.
The likes of the buffoons who give you flak do not deserve our gentle help.

Sweet spirit at the front desk,
You have it rough.
And I see you.

Ice Ice Skating

Had you told Ira Smith that she’d be spending her New Year’s Eve breaking into the local ice-skating rink she would’ve chosen to go to bed early. Instead she’s standing outside in the negative degrees trying to keep the heavy snowflakes from melting into her eyes waiting for her best friend to unlock the door from the inside. Waiting with her was the captain of the hockey team and his loyal sidekick. The captain, Lucas, whispered something into the sidekick, who’s name she could quite remember. Aaron? Erik? Arnold?

The lights inside the building flickered on. Isabella’s figure stopped inside the first set of double doors. Her employment here had been the major influence in where the race of the century would go down. Hockey player vs figure skater. Her triumph would be legendary, and she would never let Lucas forget it.

Lucas stepped toward her. “I admit, I thought your going off to college would make you a little humbler,” he said next to her ear.

“I think that all those hits to your head have finally caught up with you,” Ira answered. They had parted ways last May as academic and personal rivals when they had both received their high school diploma. Lucas had been recruited by a local college hockey team and Ira had moved an hour away to attend college where she had to fight for her life during figure skating try-outs. She had ultimately made the team but had to work twice as hard as the other girls to keep her skills sharp and up to standard.

It had been fate that led them both to the same New Years Eve party. Ira had seen Lucas across the room and vowed to keep out his way. She was there to have a good time, not to throw playground insults at each other like they were both back in high school.

But Lucas had to open his mouth, greeting her by saying “How’s the little ice ballerina?”. The situation only escalated when she had called him a ‘professional bench warmer’ before following up with saying “I’ve watched little leaguer’s get more hits”. One thing led to another and somehow, they were in their respective cars on the way to the ice rink.

“You’re going down, Smith,” Lucas said, his breath clouding the air in front of him.

“I’m going to skate circles around you.” The lock clicked and the door in front of them swung open.

Isabella’s face appeared before them. “We have to hurry this up. My boss will kill me if he finds us here.”

“This will only take a minute,” Ira assures her. The four of them make their way down to the ice rink entrance. Ira and Lucas start to throw their regular shoes off.

Ira almost sighs in relief when she trades her heels for her favorite pair of ice skates. It was lucky that she had been practicing that afternoon and hadn’t bothered to take her equipment out of her trunk. Ira double checked that her skates were secure before standing from the bench.

Isabella had already taken her phone out and was ready to record the greatest single moment of winter vacation. Lucas took one last look at his skates and stood.

“How are we doing this?” He scans the dimly lit rink before them.

“Two laps.” Ira points from one end to the other. “Straight down the middle, touch the opposite wall and the first one back is the winner. Does that work for you, oh humble one?” Ira looks up at him.

Lucas returns her lifted eyebrow with a smirk. “Whatever you want, princess.”

Ira steps onto the ice. She was glad she had chosen a short, flowy dress for the party. Winning in a skintight slip dress like Isabella was wearing would’ve been a bit more complicated. Lucas seemed perfectly comfortable in his jeans and blue sweater.

Ira took her stance by the wall and took a deep breath of the cold air, which was still warmer than the storm outside.

“You can still call this off,” Lucas said, putting his hand on the wall next to her.

“Don’t tell me you’re chickening out now?” Ira smirked.

Lucas shook his head. “No, I’m just afraid your ego will never recover.”

Ira ground her teeth. He was going down.

Isabella began a countdown from the other side of the rink. Ira and Lucas tensed in unison.

“Go!”

The cry echoed in the empty room. They shot from the wall. Ice blurred beneath her. Her hair flew from her shoulders. This was the fastest she had ever skated. This was the closest she would ever get to flying.

In a blink they were across the rink. Their hands connected to the wall with a boom. Ira didn’t know who was ahead. Before either of them knew it they were back halfway across the rink. The sound of blades gliding through ice was the only thing she could hear.

She didn’t know what happened next. Maybe one of their laces came untied. Maybe a stray button had gotten in their path. Maybe their blades had somehow hit the other. It didn’t matter. All she knew was one moment she was going faster than she ever had before and the next they were falling.

Blades, ice, and people went flying. When Ira opened her eyes their legs had become tangled and Lucas’s ice skate blade was an inch from her eye. Isabella was screaming her name as her and the best friend ran across the ice. Slowly, Ira and Lucas untangled themselves and sat up. Lucas was rubbing his head. He looked at her and froze.

“Ira?”

She blinked. He sounded a little panicked. “I’m okay.” She answered, checking her own head for bumps and blood. “Are you alright?”

Lucas nodded.

Isabella knelt/slid next to Ira. “Are you okay? Let me see your head.” Isabella immediately began a visual search of Ira. The best friend helped Lucas back to his feet.

“I’m okay, Isabella,” Ira tried to assure her. “Just a few bruises.” Lucas agreed with her.

“Y’all were lucky, man,” the best friend said in a light Southern accent.

Isabella gasped. “You need ice.” Ira opened her mouth to object, but Isabella was already up and slipping toward the rink exit. “Archie, come help me!”

The best friend looked puzzled before calmly walking after Isabella. Ira blinked, still sitting on the ice.

Lucas offered his hand and pulled her to her feet. “Are you sure you’re alright?” His eyes studied her.

Ira smiled and nodded. “Perfectly fine. I’m probably going to be a little sore tomorrow, though.” She looked down at Lucas’s hand that was still gripping her own.

He coughed and pulled it away. Cold rushed at her now empty palm. Ira twisted her mouth.

“Ira,” Lucas states as if her name was a curse then tried again. “Ira, I’m so sorry. This is my fault.”

“What are you talking about?” This had been a long time coming. All their taunts and jabs at each other had been built up for years. She was more surprised it hadn’t happened in high school. “This was both our fault, and no one was hurt. No harm, no foul.”

He sighed. “I just wanted to talk to you. I didn’t think that starting with an insult would lead us to this.” He gestured to the arena.

“If you wanted to talk to me, why didn’t you just say hi?” Ira crossed her arms. The adrenaline of the moment was fading and taking its warmth with it.

He gave her a look. “Because this is how it has always been between us. I say something stupid to get your attention and before I know it, we are throwing insults like we hate each other.”

“I don’t hate you,” Ira admitted, surprising herself when she said it.

“Well, I don’t hate you either.” He threw up his hands. “I wanted to try and have a fresh start at the party. Maybe invite you to coffee or a game.”

“Oh.” Ira didn’t know what to say. She looked down at her watch. It was still two hours until midnight. “Do you want to go back to the party? Maybe give a fresh start another try?”

He looked at her for a long time before answering. Then he nodded. “Ya, ya I’d like that.”

He held out his hand and they glided off the ice together. Ira’s lips tugged upward as she thought about how the night might go, and who’d she probably be kissing at midnight.