Fluffy Affections

Fluffy Boy

Cute fluffy boy
Playing with yarn of a toy
As your clean white hair rustle with the wind
As you bear brown little markings look like a marshmallow.

Cute Fluffy boy
How carefree must you be
To sleep in the middle of the corridor where the humans walk.
To loaf with such ease
To sploot with such grace

Cute Fluffy Boy
You close your eyes.
You smile as much as you could.
As my hand strokes the fur on your little head
You slow blink at me after I am done.
And my heart flutters.
But I know I am not your chosen family.
But I know I am not the one you will sleep and cuddle with.

And indeed, after a minute, you run off to another corner of the sidewalk where you can sleep alone.

I see the ball of fluff goes back to his lovely little slumber.
Amongst the sidewalk with birds, trees and potted plants.
As the rays of sunbathe you.
How blissful

I imagine when you wake up and run home.

You ask your family for snacks.
They gave you all the yummy
Just look at that tummy

You are free to sleep, free to eat and free to clean.

So unconstrained by the unseen chains of the bipedal.
So unrestricted by any paper laws that hover over heads
So unbound from the cuffs for two legs.

Our chase for money will never end,
They say money has four legs, just like you.
Perhaps just like you, money will elude our gestures for affections.
Perhaps just like you, only a small minority will experience your affections.

The Story of Great-Great-Grandmother Gisele

When my grandmother was a young woman, she sold emotions. Right there on that very street corner, you see? Where the sign post and the lamp meet. They were usually bottled, of course, by the time they reached her table, and she would line them up one by one, in neat little rows. The woman she sold them for was from one of the most powerful families in the city. And let me tell you, that woman would not tolerate any mistakes. Her network was small, efficient, and ruthless. After a few decades, few others dared to go into the business.

My grandmother, Gisele, she noticed this, she watched, she listened, but she kept quiet. The biggest rule was to never, ever, go against Madam Sage’s wishes. Until one day.

That day a breeze blew in, cold but soft against Gisele’s cheek. Surprised, she turned to face the direction the wind had blown in from, unused to anything but the oppressive heat of the city.

When she turned back around, a stranger was standing at her table.

Gisele startled, for she hadn’t heard this person walk up to the table. Nor did she recognize him, another surprise, for in her small domain those who bought emotions were frequent customers. The baker from around the corner who bought happiness to cope with the loss of his wife. The couple from her building who bought love in the hopes of curing the growing rift between them. And of course the kids who bought the small bottles with their allowance and dared others to drink them.

This person was not like the others. He was tall and narrow, perhaps around twenty, a long coat covering almost all of his body. Short black hair and black eyes peered at her curiously, and she couldn’t tell for the life of her where he could have come from. Certainly not the Villages…perhaps the Outer Ring? Another city?

“Do you sell emotions for Madam Sage?” the person asked.

“And you are…?” Gisele asked instead of answering. She knew better than to give a stranger information about Madam Sage.

“A newcomer.”

“Yes I could tell that.” Who did he think she was? An amateur? Emotion-selling was a lucrative position and it required the best. Not to mention emotion-stealing.

A smile quirked the edges of his lips. “Then perhaps you know who I am?”

Gisele stayed quiet.

The smile increased. “No? Has Sage not told you about us?”

“Can’t say she has,” she bit out. Something about this person ruffled her edges.
He made her want to clutch all of her bottles close and never let them go.

The stranger considered this for a few moments. Then he stuck out a hand. “Roberto. It’s a pleasure to meet you.”

Gisele made him wait for several moments, but when the hand didn’t so much as waver, she stuck out her own as well. “Gisele.”

“Hm.”

“What?” Gisele asked, annoyance growing by the minute.

“I didn’t expect you to tell me your name,” Roberto said.

This did absolutely nothing to relieve the tension gripping Gisele’s body. Or the
overwhelming suspicion. “And why not?”

“You’re well-known.”

“Excuse me? I operate a small business on a street corner.” Unless…“Did Madam Sage send you?”

“No, not her.” A hint of annoyance flashed across his face. Gisele felt some satisfaction at this. Could she try…? But no. He was already strange enough, what if he could sense it?

“Then who did?”

“Matilda.”

“Matilda who?” The longer this conversation went on the more tempted she was to try. Underneath her stand, Gisele gripped a fresh bottle in her hand.

Roberto sighed. “Matilda Van Leer. She owns a business in contention with yours. One of the few remaining thanks to Sage’s corruption. Madam Sage isn’t who you think she is.”

Who was he to say? Gisele didn’t spend all that much time thinking about Sage, but this seemed a bit biased coming from her proclaimed competition. But if this was going to work…

“Then who is she?”

Roberto stepped closer. “She manipulates you and everyone to her wishes. This whole emotion-selling business, it’s a ruse.”

“I won’t claim she’s a good person, but it’s just a business.”

“You really haven’t seen anything that worries you?”

Gisele almost rolled her eyes. “I work in the same place every day.” If he would just step a little…There. Now, which one?

Roberto’s eyes flicked to the table. No, that wouldn’t do. “Wait,” Gisele said. “I have heard some things.”

Roberto made a motion encouraging her to keep talking.

Underneath the table, her hand made a twisting, beckoning motion. When he began to look impatient, she clenched her fist, the bottle tight in her other hand, imagining the mystery being yanked from his core, and watched Roberto’s face—shift. When she looked down, midnight blue Mystery shimmered in its bottle. With a grin, she corked it.

Gisele looked up. “Who are you really and what do you have against Madam Sage?”

Roberto didn’t answer. Instead, he looked frustrated. “How on earth did Matilda think this was going to work?”

Gisele’s own frustration bubbled up at the lack of information. “Don’t make me take another.”

Madam Sage wouldn’t be happy with this. She preferred discreet. Not that Roberto was making any of this easy to be discreet.

Sadness flickered across Roberto’s face and Gisele was almost disappointed at the lack of fight. With the loss of Mystery, he seemed almost flat, a two-dimensional person. Gisele supposed it was a blessing and a curse to be so good at what she did.

But how had he known about her skill? Gisele puzzled this over, distracted, until Roberto reached out and snatched the Mystery bottle, bringing it to his lips.

“No!” Gisele cried out. “You can’t—“ The sudden onslaught of a returning emotion was usually fatal.

Roberto swiped his mouth, a grin spreading across his face, and tossed the bottle back at her. Gisele barely caught it right in front of her face, then looked at Roberto from around it. “How did you—“

“You think it’s the first time one of you has tried to take my emotions?”

Gisele had no answer. All she could do was stare.

The grin only grew. “You need to come with me.” Roberto said.

“What about my emotions?” Gisele asked, gesturing at her display. “I can’t leave now.”

There was no way she was getting fired for this.

“Oh, but you can.” That was the only response she got before he snapped his fingers and her table was gone.

“What did you just do?!”

“You can have it back later. Come with me.”

“No.”

“Listen. Matilda’s business is faltering, and she’s desperate. If I don’t take you to her my job will be in jeopardy. Now, you don’t have to accept her offer, but I would appreciate it very much if you would come with me.”

Fuming and bewildered, Gisele nodded, and followed him across the cobbled street, then two blocks over, where the elevated train screeched its way across the rusting tracks.

“We are not going on one of those.” She stopped and crossed her arms. When Roberto turned around, it was with a bemused expression on his face.

“You’re afraid of trains?”

She preferred to think of it as wary. Either way, he didn’t need to know. “I can’t just leave my family without telling them anything. And there’s no way I’m paying for a ticket.”

“Right.” He turned back around. “I’ll pay for the ticket.” Apparently he hadn’t bought the somewhat blatant lie about her nonexistent family. Not much of a surprise there. Most stealers didn’t have anyone close to them.

Roberto led her into the station where he paid for the tickets, then onto the train, snatching at the sleeve of her coat to prevent her from running away from it.

Three stops later, Roberto stood, and Gisele had no choice but to step down with him onto the platform.

All around them metal shone bright, the platform polished and clean.

“Oh wonderful,” she muttered. “Your employer is wealthy.”

“I suppose you could say that. But you wouldn’t be entirely correct these days,” Roberto said, and walked down the stairs.

Some blocks later they arrived in front of a stately building, all carved stone. A typical wealthy person’s dwelling, Gisele thought. Roberto opened the door, dragged her in, and without warning, shouted, “Matilda!”

Gisele pulled out of his grasp as the door closed behind them.

A minute later a woman descended the impressive, albeit creaky, staircase curving its way up to the second floor. Her face was drawn into a carefully neutral expression, but upon seeing the two of them, something like hope squeezed in. “Is this her?”

“This is the one. But we don’t have a good chance. She doesn’t have any issue with Sage.”

“Well, I’m glad you managed to get her, dear.”

Gisele didn’t like the sound of that at all. “What do you mean, ‘get’ me?”

“The way I see it, you can’t go about working for that old hag any longer,” Matilda said.

“That old hag has kept me out of poverty for years now.” Gisele frowned. “I can make my own life decisions thank you very much.”

“But what if we could make you a better deal? Not many people have your talent.”

“I’m aware.”

Matilda almost appeared amused for a moment. She looked at Roberto, who gave her a knowing look. “Well dear, what if you came to work for us instead of Sage? You’d get twice the pay and wouldn’t have to live with the guilt of working for a corrupt system.”

“If it even is corrupt,” she muttered. Then she said louder, sticking her chin up. “Personally I’m perfectly happy how I am.”

“Stubborn too,” Matilda sighed. “Would you at least hear us out?”

“Do I have a choice?”

“Not particularly,” Roberto said.

Gisele scowled.

Matilda smiled. “In that case, follow me.” She led Gisele to her office, a stately room that would’ve been made much more impressive with a fresh coat of paint and a new rug.

Once they’d all sat down, Matilda began. “If you come to work with me, not only will I pay you more, you’ll get off that street corner. If you help me succeed, earn enough profit, you might even end up helping me run the business.”

Gisele sat and pretended to think it through, but inside her head, the first seeds of an idea had begun to take root.

Grandmother never told me in detail what happened during those next two years—told me her mind got fuzzy. The next thing she always said was this: Matilda’s offer was too good to resist. But what she also said was to never take offers at face value. Remember children: it takes time for the fine things in life.

Her story usually picked up two years later on the eve of her eighteenth birthday. She’d worked hard and climbed her way up in the company. There was a party, I believe, to celebrate her one day coming into the money she’d helped Matilda earn—lots of it.

She always described the feeling of sliding silk gloves onto her arms, anticipation building as she picked her way down the refurbished stairs of Matilda’s house and into the dining room, careful not to trip over her skirts.

Roberto smiled as she entered by his side and she couldn’t resist an eye roll.
“I don’t see what the big deal is all about,” she leaned in to whisper.

“Yes you do.”

She pretended to consider a moment. “Yes I do.”

Matilda was near the head of the table, stern as always, her eyes fixed on Gisele’s.

“You have a lot to be proud of,” Roberto whispered in Gisele’s ear. “No matter what happens, remember that. And remember what you’ll owe me.”

It was a difficult thing for Gisele to hide the twisted grin that wanted desperately to split her face but somehow she managed, keeping her smile small and docile. “I will.”

Matilda, wearing her own finery, reached down towards the table and clinked her wine glass with a fork. The hall silenced within a few moments.

“To my niece, Gisele, and her future fortune!” Glasses were raised. Gisele smiled and inwardly wished they’d gone with a relation a little farther off.

She walked closer and found her place at the table, closing her eyes briefly and feeling all the emotions swirling around her. She felt many: happiness, elation (presumably more from the wine than anything related to Gisele), jealousy, and finally—most importantly—loyalty.

It was such a two-sided coin, loyalty.

Matilda indicated everyone should take their places as well. When everyone was assembled, the company sat.

The dinner was served, and then, finished, the guests moved from the dining room to the ballroom.

Gisele eyed the door to the kitchens. A nearby server gave her a nod. Gisele returned it.

Matilda really should’ve been nicer to her staff.

With another glance at Roberto, across the room and caught up in a dance, Gisele crossed the room to where Matilda was deep in conversation with a wealthy businessman. “I’m looking forward to our future ventures,” he was saying. In other words, he couldn’t wait to be provided with his first shipment of emotions. It seemed he had decided to branch out a little.

Gisele smiled as the pair noticed her, inclining her head to both of them.

“Gisele, my dear,” Matilda said, pride in her tight smile. Gisele clutched her wine glass a bit harder. “Mr. Rosen, have you had the chance to meet my lovely niece?”

“I have not,” he said, bending to kiss Gisele’s free hand. He straightened and glanced back at Matilda just as Gisele squeezed her glass a bit too hard…

It shattered in her now closed fist. An invisible river poured into Gisele, making her feel lightheaded and giddy, but she shoved it away, down through her fingertips.

“Oh my, that’s—Matilda!” Mr. Rosen turned from the mess now surrounding Gisele to his business partner, collapsed on the floor, motionless.

Gisele bent over her, frantically checking her pulse. It beat slowly, decreasing by the second.

“Someone, help!” she cried. “Please, help!”

All around her, people muttered, whispered, questions. “What’s happened? Who can help her?”

Of course, no one stepped in to help, unwilling to risk the possibility of dirtying their evening dress.

“Is there no one?” Gisele wailed as Matilda’s pulse slowed further.

“Where’s the staff?” Rosen yelled. Everyone looked around, just as confused as he was at the lack of black-and-white-clad figures.

Gisele could hear Roberto yelling, squeezing through people to get to her.

Just as he parted the last few, she raised her head and glanced into the crowd, catching a familiar eye. A beat later Gisele pointed, yelling, “Her! It was her! Madam Sage is here, someone get her!”

With that, everyone leapt to their feet to grab the woman standing amongst them, whose expression melted from satisfaction to unbridled fury. “What have you done, you foolish girl?”

“I haven’t done anything.” Gisele trembled with false rage, clenching her fists. She had no intention of allowing Sage to stage her coup tonight, despite what she’d promised her. “She’s clearly had her emotions drained. I should know. And who else but her fiercest competitor?”

Two upper-class officers in the crowd grabbed her as everyone clamored to get a look.

Distantly, Gisele felt Roberto behind her, attempting to be a reassuring presence. She turned to look at him. “Is there anything we can do?”

Roberto watched Madam Sage being dragged out, now strangely limp, with hatred. “No. No one can handle all of their emotions being ripped from them so suddenly. Not even you or I. Haven’t I mentioned that before?”

As he helped her up, she said softly, “You get a fourth.”

“A third at least. I could have you arrested right here and now.”

“Fine.”

Late that night, Gisele snuck out of the building, tracing her way through back alleys and darkened streets, hood up to conceal her face.

Some minutes later she reached a more decrepit building, one that seemed to have fallen into disrepair in recent years. The front was a store, but in the back, a factory loomed large.

Gisele snuck into its side, looking both ways before she entered.

A single light gleamed from the office overlooking the main floor. Gisele climbed the stairs and let herself in.

The server from the ball—unimportant, but significant to her game of staying close to each business—sat behind the desk, inspecting several sheets of paper. She looked up as the door clicked shut. “Gisele.”

“I believe you owe me those documents.”

“For double crossing everyone and taking it all? Please tell me I get a cut.”

“Ten percent. And the highest paying job in my new monopoly,” Gisele said, finally allowing her grin to spread across her face.

“Very well. It’s all yours then. How you expect to cover it up I’ll never know. Madam Sage won’t stay quiet.”

Gisele’s smile widened as she reached into her pockets, holding up two bottles swirling with many, many emotions. “Oh, but she will.”

When my grandmother was young, she sold emotions, and she took them too. She worked hard to earn the trust of two powerful women, and then took over both of their companies.

Remember children: to ensure your success you must play your cards just as well as your great-great-grandmother played hers. Your skill is important, yes, and it may make you feel powerful, but the real key? That is your mind. Use it to come out on top.

Shackles of the Past

The past, I cannot stop thinking of it.
The cast the bounds my foot
The chains to the people that don’t give a hoot.
About my heart and my soul.
Cast it in the fire, as I should have yesterday
As I should put my eyes on the future.

The future, as they like to say, sunlight is ahead
But how would you know sunlight if all you ever seen is the dark

The past bounds me, their chains dig into my bones
The past holds me, the steel rings whenever I tug against it,
That I cannot break it.
That there is no letting go.

I pick my legs up and run.
Only to be lugged by that rusty, steel ball bearing.
Only to have my bones hurt on me.

I sigh, and I grab my bounded leg.
I wish I had the strength to break those chains that hold me
I wish I can jump in the water, let go and swim
Be free.

They say a yacht is the instrument of freedom.
They say sailing gives no boredom.
Well, I’ll have a big ship.
With buffet of ocean’s catch
With cocktails of exotic drinks
With the breath of the freshest breeze.

But only, only if I can get this chain off me.

Snowday

I look out my window and smile at the white blanket that has covered my city while I slept. I reached for my phone to check my notifications to find that school had been canceled for the day. Texts started to fill the group chat and before I knew it, my house had become the designated meeting area. Groaning, I slithered out of bed onto my cold floor. I had less than twenty minutes before my friends started to come in from down the street.

Once I was dressed I shuffled down the hallway and poured myself a cup of coffee. My mom sat at the counter while scrolling through her phone.

“Good Morning, Darcy.” My mom looked up from her phone. “Any plans for your day off?” A loud knock came from the front door before I could answer. My mom smirked and went back to her phone.

“Open the door, get out here,” Raelynn calls through the door. I run to the entryway and throw on my jacket. I open the door to see Raelynn and Evan standing on my front porch. Their siblings were behind them talking on my lawn.  

“What do you guys want?” I asked like I didn’t already know. It was our tradition to have a snowball fight every first snow day of the school year. You could call it childish, but a tradition is a tradition and Raelynn never let us skip it.

“Oh, I don’t know,” Raelynn answered back to me, just as sarcastic. I walk out the door and shut it behind me. “Your brother is still asleep?” She asked, noticing my brother had failed to make an appearance.

I shrug. “Probably, he prefers to sleep in on his snow days, like a normal person.” Evan smirks in my direction, Raelynn nods in understanding.

“We thought he might bail on us, so we recruited my new neighbor. I think you two might have math class together,” Evan says as we rounded the corner to the back of my house. I had the biggest backyard so naturally we gathered here.

“Who?” I ask. Evan motions past me and I turn around. Right there in the middle of my backyard was Aiden.

I grab Evan by the arm and pull him closer so he could hear me whisper in his ear. “He’s your new neighbor? The one you called cool the other day?” I hissed. Evan widens his eyes at me and nods.

“Is something wrong?” Raelynn asks. I take a deep breath and release Evan. I put on a fake smile and look at Raelynn.

“Nope, everything is just peachy,” I say through clenched teeth. Raelynn’s face lights up and she claps her hands.

“Perfect,” She says, then turns away from me. “Okay, everyone line up. Darcy and I will be captains today.” The troops fell in line against the back of my house. There were eight of us in total. Raelynn had three younger siblings and Evan had one. All ranging in ages of four to thirteen.

Raelynn and I walked over to face them.

“Rock, paper, scissors?” Raelynn asks. I nod. We fought, rock beat scissors. I lost. Raelynn picks first.

“Rachel.” She picks Evans’ younger sister first.

“Hardy.” I picked Raelynn’s youngest brother. Raelynn picks her oldest sister, and I pick her middle sister. I was now down to Evan and Aiden. My stomach dropped. I knew who she’d pick and that left me with a less desirable option. Raelynn and Evan weren’t officially a thing, but they definitely should be. As the nerds would say, ‘I ship it’.  

“Evan,” Raelynn says with a smile. Evan beams and walks over to her side and Aiden walks over to me.

“Hi,” He says with a wicked grin. I give him a glare.

“Hi yourself,” I say back.

“Five minutes to strategize.” Raelynn says to me. Her and her team walk over to the left side of the backyard.

“So, a snowball fight,” Aiden tries to make conversation.

“Yes,” I answered shortly. I look over to my group. “Okay, team. They may have Evan and Karly, but we have Hardy, the official softball pitcher of P.E class. They don’t stand a chance.” I say. They grin and Hardy pretends to flex the muscles he didn’t have. “Today our strategy is simple: throw snowballs like your life depended on it, and don’t get hit. This isn’t dodgeball guys, this is war!” My two youngest troops yelled. “Now go make some ammo, I need to talk to my subordinate,” I say. They give another yell and run off to the right.

“Subordinate?” Aiden asks, eyebrows raised. I looked at him sideways and then turned to him.

“You heard me.” I crossed my arms.

Aiden holds up his hand. “Are you still mad about the other day?” He asks.

“You mean when you dropped your entire coffee on my lap during lunch? Yes, yes, I am still mad.” Him and his friends had been running through the cafeteria. Aiden had been dodging a half-peeled orange when he stepped on a water puddle and fell right into my lap. Iced coffee had splashed across my shirt and jeans. What had made me upset wasn’t that my shirt had been white and was completely ruined, or the fact that I would have to change my entire outfit, it was when he had stood up and he and his entire brigade had started laughing at me.

“It was an accident,” he says like he would to an angry toddler.

“So you’ve said, but what I haven’t got was an apology.”

He opens his mouth to say something I’m sure will make the situation worse, but I close my eyes and shake my head. Sometimes I wonder about him. “Go,” I say to him pointing to Harley. He walks away and I follow him. I kneel and start making snowballs. Aiden kneels in front of me. I glance up at him and our eyes meet. He holds up a finger and starts to shape the snow.  

He grins at me and holds something out in his palm. I look down and bite the inside of my cheek. In his hand is a small duck made out of snow. He holds it out to me.

“Does that count as an apology?” He asks. I look back up at him. “Come on, Darcy. Can’t we be friends?” I give the realest glare I can muster and snatch the creation out of his hand.

“This is not over,” I say to him while setting the duck aside. He grins and starts making normal snowballs. I sigh and start to copy him.

Sweet spirit at the front desk

Its tough on you.
Handling all the paper
Talking to the caller
Appeasing the cussing customer.


A bag filled with mails,
Yet none of them are for you,
To give u respite
To give you comfort
To tell you “you did a great job”
To tell you “you are too precious for this”
To tell you “you are a treasure.”
To tell you “you are too much of a sweetheart for this.”


A phone full of calls,
None of them to tell you,
“Thank you for your help.”
“Good job.”
“Happy weekends.”


A box filled with food,
Yet you gave them out to your office colleagues when the canteen runs out of food.
And none for yourself…
Who has thanked you, kind soul?


Not that sweaty, stinky supplier who ate all your oreos,
Not Jerry from systems admin, who ate your cup noodles
And definitely not Jess from accounting, who drank your sweet tea.


I wanna say we are kindred spirits.
But who am I kidding, we do different jobs, and have different hours.
Oh, if only I could be with you for longer.


But who am I kidding, you are all alone in your duty…


But, I know, oh I have to know,
Customers, users, suppliers, no matter the label, wear bullshittery and embody assholery.
I know the likes of these assholes at what I do too.


We are kindred after all,
Despite how different our job labels are
Despite our differences in duties,
We know how rotten entitlement sounds like.
We know how awful it is, to show grace and help to the undeserving.


Sometimes, I see your face puffy,
And your eyes all red,
But you still smile through it all


If only I could hug you so tight.


To give u respite
To give you comfort
To tell you “you did a great job”
To tell you “you are too precious for this”
To tell you “you are a treasure.”
To tell you “you are too much of a sweetheart for this.”


Any broken piece you have, come back together.


And I shall protect your heart, so none will scar you, nor your sweet spirit anymore.
You are too kind of a soul for this.
The likes of the buffoons who give you flak do not deserve our gentle help.

Sweet spirit at the front desk,
You have it rough.
And I see you.

Ice Ice Skating

Had you told Ira Smith that she’d be spending her New Year’s Eve breaking into the local ice-skating rink she would’ve chosen to go to bed early. Instead she’s standing outside in the negative degrees trying to keep the heavy snowflakes from melting into her eyes waiting for her best friend to unlock the door from the inside. Waiting with her was the captain of the hockey team and his loyal sidekick. The captain, Lucas, whispered something into the sidekick, who’s name she could quite remember. Aaron? Erik? Arnold?

The lights inside the building flickered on. Isabella’s figure stopped inside the first set of double doors. Her employment here had been the major influence in where the race of the century would go down. Hockey player vs figure skater. Her triumph would be legendary, and she would never let Lucas forget it.

Lucas stepped toward her. “I admit, I thought your going off to college would make you a little humbler,” he said next to her ear.

“I think that all those hits to your head have finally caught up with you,” Ira answered. They had parted ways last May as academic and personal rivals when they had both received their high school diploma. Lucas had been recruited by a local college hockey team and Ira had moved an hour away to attend college where she had to fight for her life during figure skating try-outs. She had ultimately made the team but had to work twice as hard as the other girls to keep her skills sharp and up to standard.

It had been fate that led them both to the same New Years Eve party. Ira had seen Lucas across the room and vowed to keep out his way. She was there to have a good time, not to throw playground insults at each other like they were both back in high school.

But Lucas had to open his mouth, greeting her by saying “How’s the little ice ballerina?”. The situation only escalated when she had called him a ‘professional bench warmer’ before following up with saying “I’ve watched little leaguer’s get more hits”. One thing led to another and somehow, they were in their respective cars on the way to the ice rink.

“You’re going down, Smith,” Lucas said, his breath clouding the air in front of him.

“I’m going to skate circles around you.” The lock clicked and the door in front of them swung open.

Isabella’s face appeared before them. “We have to hurry this up. My boss will kill me if he finds us here.”

“This will only take a minute,” Ira assures her. The four of them make their way down to the ice rink entrance. Ira and Lucas start to throw their regular shoes off.

Ira almost sighs in relief when she trades her heels for her favorite pair of ice skates. It was lucky that she had been practicing that afternoon and hadn’t bothered to take her equipment out of her trunk. Ira double checked that her skates were secure before standing from the bench.

Isabella had already taken her phone out and was ready to record the greatest single moment of winter vacation. Lucas took one last look at his skates and stood.

“How are we doing this?” He scans the dimly lit rink before them.

“Two laps.” Ira points from one end to the other. “Straight down the middle, touch the opposite wall and the first one back is the winner. Does that work for you, oh humble one?” Ira looks up at him.

Lucas returns her lifted eyebrow with a smirk. “Whatever you want, princess.”

Ira steps onto the ice. She was glad she had chosen a short, flowy dress for the party. Winning in a skintight slip dress like Isabella was wearing would’ve been a bit more complicated. Lucas seemed perfectly comfortable in his jeans and blue sweater.

Ira took her stance by the wall and took a deep breath of the cold air, which was still warmer than the storm outside.

“You can still call this off,” Lucas said, putting his hand on the wall next to her.

“Don’t tell me you’re chickening out now?” Ira smirked.

Lucas shook his head. “No, I’m just afraid your ego will never recover.”

Ira ground her teeth. He was going down.

Isabella began a countdown from the other side of the rink. Ira and Lucas tensed in unison.

“Go!”

The cry echoed in the empty room. They shot from the wall. Ice blurred beneath her. Her hair flew from her shoulders. This was the fastest she had ever skated. This was the closest she would ever get to flying.

In a blink they were across the rink. Their hands connected to the wall with a boom. Ira didn’t know who was ahead. Before either of them knew it they were back halfway across the rink. The sound of blades gliding through ice was the only thing she could hear.

She didn’t know what happened next. Maybe one of their laces came untied. Maybe a stray button had gotten in their path. Maybe their blades had somehow hit the other. It didn’t matter. All she knew was one moment she was going faster than she ever had before and the next they were falling.

Blades, ice, and people went flying. When Ira opened her eyes their legs had become tangled and Lucas’s ice skate blade was an inch from her eye. Isabella was screaming her name as her and the best friend ran across the ice. Slowly, Ira and Lucas untangled themselves and sat up. Lucas was rubbing his head. He looked at her and froze.

“Ira?”

She blinked. He sounded a little panicked. “I’m okay.” She answered, checking her own head for bumps and blood. “Are you alright?”

Lucas nodded.

Isabella knelt/slid next to Ira. “Are you okay? Let me see your head.” Isabella immediately began a visual search of Ira. The best friend helped Lucas back to his feet.

“I’m okay, Isabella,” Ira tried to assure her. “Just a few bruises.” Lucas agreed with her.

“Y’all were lucky, man,” the best friend said in a light Southern accent.

Isabella gasped. “You need ice.” Ira opened her mouth to object, but Isabella was already up and slipping toward the rink exit. “Archie, come help me!”

The best friend looked puzzled before calmly walking after Isabella. Ira blinked, still sitting on the ice.

Lucas offered his hand and pulled her to her feet. “Are you sure you’re alright?” His eyes studied her.

Ira smiled and nodded. “Perfectly fine. I’m probably going to be a little sore tomorrow, though.” She looked down at Lucas’s hand that was still gripping her own.

He coughed and pulled it away. Cold rushed at her now empty palm. Ira twisted her mouth.

“Ira,” Lucas states as if her name was a curse then tried again. “Ira, I’m so sorry. This is my fault.”

“What are you talking about?” This had been a long time coming. All their taunts and jabs at each other had been built up for years. She was more surprised it hadn’t happened in high school. “This was both our fault, and no one was hurt. No harm, no foul.”

He sighed. “I just wanted to talk to you. I didn’t think that starting with an insult would lead us to this.” He gestured to the arena.

“If you wanted to talk to me, why didn’t you just say hi?” Ira crossed her arms. The adrenaline of the moment was fading and taking its warmth with it.

He gave her a look. “Because this is how it has always been between us. I say something stupid to get your attention and before I know it, we are throwing insults like we hate each other.”

“I don’t hate you,” Ira admitted, surprising herself when she said it.

“Well, I don’t hate you either.” He threw up his hands. “I wanted to try and have a fresh start at the party. Maybe invite you to coffee or a game.”

“Oh.” Ira didn’t know what to say. She looked down at her watch. It was still two hours until midnight. “Do you want to go back to the party? Maybe give a fresh start another try?”

He looked at her for a long time before answering. Then he nodded. “Ya, ya I’d like that.”

He held out his hand and they glided off the ice together. Ira’s lips tugged upward as she thought about how the night might go, and who’d she probably be kissing at midnight.

The Broken Promises

Dear Friend,

I should never have taken your word for it.
When you said I am free to talk about my fears.
For the future, for our plans.
Whether I will succeed at work or not.
I opened up to you,
And instantly your kindness turned into dismissal.

Dear Friend,

I should have never taken your word for it,
When you looked me in the eye and said “I’m always here for you.”
Yet when I came calling, you never picked up.
Yet when I came texting, you never wrote back.
There was nothing, zilch, nada.

Dear Friend,

I should have never taken your word for it,
When you said you’ll return me my five dollars,
Five became ten, and then ten became a hundred.
You ate so many free meals with me.
Yet when I wanted to do anything else with you,
You magically vanish.

Dear Friend,

I should have never taken your word for it,

When you said you knew me,
Or rather, perhaps you think you did.

You think you know me but,
You never did,
You only listened to respond and chime in how you are better in every way,
Keep gloating.
Keep yapping.
As you ride off the distance, gleefully discarding people like used clothes.
One by one, I’m just another of your disposables you threw on the roadside.

Monsters and Fairies

Grave rocked back on forth on his toes as he waited for his assignment to pop into the air in front of him. He had hust finished his official training as a MUB (Monster Under the Bed), and he was ready for his first assignment. More than ready. He had been shadowing a seasoned professional for fifty years as of last night and tonight would be his first solo mission.

In the great hall, where all the monsters gathered before the beginning of their shift, the air was tight in anticipation. The gold banesters and green moss chairs seemed to be extra colorful, and the statium was pack full of other full fledged monsters. Grave blew his grass colored hair out of his face. One of the other monsters down his row noticed Grave’s nervousness and gave his a small nod.

Then it began.

Starting from one end of the bowl shaped room and slowing circling around, a wave of scrolls appeared. The sound came in waves, a small poof and then the crinkling sound of old paper filled the room.

When the scroll appeared in front of Grave, he snatched it out of the air before it could even think about flaling to the ground. Slowly he pulled the scroll apart and smiled at the child he had been given. A six year old boy named Ryan, who lived in on the edge of San Fransisco, and had lost his first tooth that morning.

Grave almost groaned aloud, but kept the smile on his face. The monster beside him disappeared, reminding him of the important next step. Grave pulled out a leather necklace and fumbled with the ring attached on the end. Without letting the strained expression on his face fall, he pressed his special seal onto the paper, therefore acception the mission.

In an instant Grave was pulled into a magic portal and drug through into the mortal world. He had become used to portal travel in the last few decades, but he stopped to make sure that everything he needed had come through with him.

He checked the top of his head; making sure that his anters and green hair had remained exactly as they had been. Next he opened the bag at his hip to make sure the special powders and dream collector was there. Lastly he checked his arms and legs. His fingers were all in place with iron pointed nails at the end of each, and his feet were covered by soft leather shoes.

Ryan groaned and shifted in his bed and let out a soft breath that could only belong to a child.

Grave pulled out the dream collector and slowy crept toward the bed. When telling the story of the Monsters Under the Bed, what many parents got wrong was the purpose of the creatures. Monsters were assigned to collect the dreams and bring them back to their world, which entirely relied on them for the source of power (only the good dreams, though, the nightmares that they had collected were sold to Hollywood to be made as cheep horror films). The monsters weren’t there to scare or eat the children, although Grave had seen his old mentor frighten an adult or two.

All grave had to do was open the spherical dream collector over Ryan’s head and collect the dream before…

“What are you doing here?” A light voice hissed from behind him.

Grave would forever claim he hadn’t cringed at the voice, but cringe he did. He slowly looked over his shoulder and saw what he dreaded most: a toothfairy.

A fairy, not much shorter than him, stood with her ams cross and a sparkling wand dangling in her hand. She had tight, red curles and a silver dress that were shaped like flower pedals. Her most impressive feature were the two giant hummingbird wings fluttering on her back.

“That’s my tooth, monster.” She pointed the wand at Grave and fixed her face into a glare. The light of the wand made the freckles across her nose glow in the dark.

“I don’t care about the tooth, I’m just here for the dream.” Grave clutched the sphere tighter. Monsters and toothfairies lived in neighboring realms and when they first started crossing over to the human world rules had to be made. The first rule that had been put into place was that only one magical being could interfere with a child on any given night. Not a problem for the monsters when the child grew into their teens and adulthood, but a big problem for Grave right now.

Grave stepped toward the bed and the fairy lunged. They fell to the floor, the sphere rolling out of Grave’s grasp.

“You monsters get all the other nights, go find someone else,” the fairy grunted at Grave shoved her away from him. The fairy reached for the nearest object and a racecar sailed into the air and hit Grave on the side of the face.

“I can’t go back empty handed.” Grave crawled forward, his head now pounding. He would a laughing stock. Returning without a dream on your first night would make him the joke of the year. He would never be able to live it down. No, he couldn’t be outmatched by a tiny, little fairy.

Grave’s hand closed around the sphere and he tossed it into the air. A silver light shot toward the sphere. It shot low and splashed in the wall behind the bed. Grave stood, ready to defend the sphere with his life. He barley had his footing when the fairy tried fly and reach over his head. Grave turned and moved to prtect the sphere, which had already started to spin and collect whatever dream little Ryan was having.

As Grave moved his foot came down to rest on the racecar that had previously connected with his face. When Grave put weight onto the car it slipped out from underneath him. Grave stumbled forward and fell. His mouth made a terrible crack against the bedpost as he fell. The fairy gasped and collapsed on her knees next to him.

“Are you alright?” Worry danced in her wide eyes. “I didn’t mean for that to happen.”

Grave sat up and was about to answer when he felt something new rolling around in his mouth. Grave spit the object into his hand and held it toward the fairy to use her glow to see what it was.

The fairy put and hand to her mouth and picked up the monster’s broken tooth. Grave was too stunned to move. “It’s beautiful,” she whispered, then blushed. “I’ve never seen a monster tooth before.”

Grave opened his mouth and ran a finger along the top row of his teeth. He found the hole only to find the tooth had already started to grow back.The sphere above Ryan clicked off and fell and rolled onto the floor.

Thet fairy reached and handed the sphere back to Grave. “I guess you win this round…”

Grave blinked as he waited for her to finish, until he realized she was waiting for him. A squeek came out first. “Grave,” his voice came out louder the second time.

The fairy smirked. “Nice to meet you Grave. I’m Cassidy. You can have that back, but I’m keeping your tooth. I’d much rather have it anyway.” She stood and raised her wand. “Until we meet again.” Dust shimmered down to her feet, and then she was gone.

Grave sat for a long while trying to wrap his head around what happened. Finally he smiled down at the sphere in his hand and retuned back to his land. All the while thinking about when he might see Cassidy the fairy again.

It’s a Ghost Party

The party was crowded with things seen and things invisible. Strobe and Christmas lights hung carelessly throughout the Victorian style house that hadn’t been ‘officially’ occupied since a tree caved in the extended sitting room a decade ago. As music pumped through portable speakers, college students mingled and danced in groups separated by half caved in walls. 

Alina stood at the top of the entrance stairwell. From there, she could see everyone who entered and most of the living area. If any of the drunk partiers were to glance up at her, they would see a loner glaring into the crowd. They would then glance away and forget all about it. A few might wonder when she got there or if she even went to their school, but those thoughts didn’t bother her. It was the ghosts and overconfident football players that did. 

Alina felt a cold breeze brush against her neck. She looked over to see Ren rest his forearms on the railing next to her. He looked over the crowd with none of the distain Alina felt. His eyes darted from the girls at the bottom of the wooden stairs to the lights to the living area, where most of the dancing was happening. 

“See anything?” Alina asked Ren. She would normally whisper when talking to him, but between the music and the distance between her and everyone else no one would hear her talking to air. 

Ren glanced at her then looked back down to rescan the crowd. He straightened and moved so his hands rested on the railing. It was habit for him; acting as if he was solid. Like he could touch the railing, like he couldn’t float around if he wanted to. 

“I see what you see.”

His response wasn’t a no. They could both feel that something ‘other’ was there but hadn’t been able to see it yet. It was why she was here. She had known something powerful resided in the abandoned building when she drove by a few weeks ago, and as long as the building stayed abandoned it wasn’t her problem. The harmless dead had no claim over her time. When the living got involved, however… She had heard of the party a few days ago and had to double check the address to make sure it was the same building. So, here she was, looking for something quite not there when she should’ve been studying for tomorrow’s chemistry test. 

“Who do you think it is?” Movement drew Alina’s attention to the door. Two college students cheered as they brought in a large stack of pizza. 

“Probably a child,” Ren answered, “Victorian houses always seem to have children.”

Alina shivered. Children were the worst kind of ghost. Some of the adults could be reasoned with, but children never understood and that made them dangerous and deadly. 

“Where are they?” 

Ren, being dead himself, could normally sense them out, but they hadn’t been able to find anything earlier that day or when party goers had started to show up. 

Ren had been the first ghost Alina had seen. For weeks she had thought she was going crazy, then she started seeing more people that weren’t there. Ren said he was here to help her and that she was one of the few that were able to see them. He taught her how to trap the ghosts into charms and how to put them to rest. 

“It’s still here,” Ren confirmed, “why don’t you go have some fun? I promise I’ll find you if I see it.” 

Alina looked over at him. “I’ll have fun when the job is done.”

Ren snorted. “No, you’ll go right back to your dorm and study for the rest of the night. I don’t think you understand the college experience. It’s concerning.”

“Oh?”  Alina raised her eyebrows. “Were you were a big partier in college?”

Ren grinned. “Maybe, maybe not.”

Alina sighed loudly and tilted her eyes to the ceiling in a pleading look. Ren refused to tell her about when he was alive. All she had ever managed to get out of him was that his name was Ren and his parents had moved to the States from Japan when he was only one. That was it. Her best friend was a total mystery. 

A creak down the hall caught her attention. Alina looked around Ren into the darkness. The darkness made eye contact then moved into the nearest room. A room she knew to be a study. 

“Did you see that?” 

Ren blinked a few times. “No. What was it?”

Alina slowly moved out of sight of the party goers and down the hall. She slipped the chain over her head. The maroon gem spun as she wrapped the chain around her palm. 

“Alina, Alina,” Ren harshly whispered. He was a few steps behind her, and hated when she went in blind, but flashlights make it harder for her to see them. 

Alina stepped over the threshold and into the study. Ren paused in the hall. Inside were a few chairs and a desk. The wall still held old picture frames covered in dust and empty bookshelves. Otherwise the room was empty.

“I don’t see anyth-” Ren’s voice was cut off by the door slamming in his face. 

Alina spun around in time to see an arm lash out from the darkness hitting her in the middle. Her feet left the ground, and she flew across the room. Wood splintered beneath her as she landed on an old chair. 

“That’s new,” Alina groaned as she stumbled to her feet. Ghosts couldn’t touch her until the stone touched them, until now apparently. Beyond the door Ren was yelling her name and pounding on the door. Which was weird because he should’ve been able to pass right through the door. 

The form rushed at her again, but she was ready. Her body moved with the ghost. He reached. Alina grabbed his arm rolled back and flipped him over her head and onto his back. Alina rolled and leapt from her crouched position. The ghost, in the middle of sitting up, was tackled back to the floor. 

Alina pushed his chest with her hands and tried to maneuver the gemstone so it could touch the skin over his heart. Blood dripped down her face where the ghost raked his fingers down her cheek. 

She cried out as the ghost flipped her, so he was on top. His hands wrapped around her neck. Her hands tore into his shirt. She tried to scream. Her lips felt heavy. Felt numb. The gem still hung from her fingers. Ren was screaming her name. She could see the bare skin. Total darkness edged her vision. She felt as is her heart was about to explode. The gem escaped her grasp and fell to the floor. Her fingers remained on his chest. Her eyes shifted to his face only to find darkness. No eyes, no mouth, no nose. Just black shadow. Her hands fell as the last of the world drifted away. 

Then nothing. 

The weight on her chest was lifted. Air flooded her throat. Alina opened her eyes and rolled onto her side as she gasped and coughed. Her hand landed on her necklace. In the corner of her returning vision Ren was fighting off the faceless thing. It hit Ren in the gut, who fell to one knee giving It the leverage to kick Ren in the face.

Alina curled her fingers around the chain. Her arms shook as she pushed herself off the ground. Ren threw It across the room and into a wall. Dust fell from the roof and a picture frame smashed to the floor. Glass scattered on the hardwood. 

It shook it’s head before stumbling forward. Alina lined herself behind Ren’s form. Her legs shook and her head spun while trying to pound itself out of her skull. It lunged across the room to Ren. In a smooth motion Ren grabbed It’s wrist and twisted under and up. Alina moved forward and reached up. The gem slammed into It’s chest. Bright light escaped through Alina’s fingers. 

It screamed. A horrid, draining sound. Most ghosts lean into the gem and let it absorb them, like they were being sucked into a wormhole. Instead the thing screamed and burst into black ash before disappearing. 

Alina dropped her hand. 

“Alina, are you alright?”

Alina looked up to Ren concerned face right before her knees gave out and she collapsed onto the floor. 

“Alina!” Ren dropped in front of her. His hands hovered over her arms wanting to touch her but knowing they will just pass right through her. 

Alina held one hand to her throat and the other on the ground to keep her from flopping over. She stayed that way for a long while: hand on the ground feeling the pulse of the music below, breathing even though every breath sent pain zipping through her throat, and eyes closed trying to keep from passing out. 

“Alina, are you okay? The room wouldn’t let me in, and I heard you scream. Somehow, I broke the door down and I saw that thing on top of you and I thought you were dead. Alina, are you alright?”

Alina finally opened her eyes and looked to Ren. “What was that?” The question was a hoarse whisper. 

“I don’t know.” Ren shook his head and repeated the answer a second time under his breath. “We’ll worry about that tomorrow. You should see a doctor.”

Alina shook her head and stood. “I’m fine. I just need some rest.” Ren rose with her, hands outstretched to catch her if she fell. It was enough to almost make her smile. “Let’s go home.”

How to Get Through a Fantastical Maze (without going *that* insane)

First, patience. You’ll need a lot of it because you won’t be able to get a bird’s eye view to see where you are (at least at first). Understand that moving will get you farther than sitting and contemplating every fork in the road. Ignore the secret passages. They are dark, damp, and scary, and do not have your best interest at heart. The doors though, they might be useful. Like, go through them, wandering around is useless.

Fail with the patience thing. No one has that much patience. Talk to people, you’re not alone here. But don’t trust them, they also don’t have your best interest at heart. Get frustrated, since you know you’ve already been here. It’s okay to rage a little. Get misled by someone. It happens, and will definitely happen again. Keep going through the doors, and ignore anyone or anything that doesn’t look human. Please. It’s really in your best interest.

You ended up in a secret passage didn’t you. 

Well, now that you’re here, take a look around. Dark and scary? Yep. Keep moving. Aaand there’s that person you falsely trusted. Run. Okay, now you’re back at the surface and have absolutely no clue where you are. Get some sleep already! See that door there? It’s trustworthy. Probably. Sleep on the bed in there.

Start to really run out of patience. You’ve been here longer than you thought you would be. Learn a life lesson here, namely to be flexible and stop having expectations. When morning comes, leave that room fast, it might combust, who knows. Go into that door, no, not that one, that one. You’re technically not supposed to be in here, but while you are, grab that bottle from the shelf to your left. The tiny glass one with the purple liquid. Leave the room and run because someone will probably be trying to get that bottle back or they’ll simply be angry you were in there. Drink the liquid before it’s too late. No, stop hesitating and drink it. Seriously, there’s only a ten percent chance it will kill you and at least you’ll be out of there!

See? Told you it wouldn’t kill you. Oh and by the way, think the word “bird” in your mind.

You’re a bird now! Find a skylight and fly through it. Remember the bird’s eye view? You have it now. And don’t get caught! 

You got caught in bird form and the container is too small to change back into human form. Well, no one said this was going to be easy. Hope you got a good look to know where you’re going once you get free. Anyway, a bird isn’t your only option. Keep that in mind, but your captors will want you as a human so they’ll let you out at some point. Once they’ve let you out and told you to shift into a human, do that. This is what you get for going into weird potion rooms, but it was a necessary price. No idea what they plan to do to you so shift into a bug when they get distracted. A small bug that doesn’t make a lot of noise and can fly fast.

Fly through that tiny door in front of you! Now shift back into a human quick. You also shouldn’t be in this library so be stealthy and don’t poke your nose into even more fantastical business. You’re only human. 

Fail at that because being nosy is your worst flaw. There’s a reason you’re in the maze in the first place. Do you have any idea where you are or where you’re going? Fine, get a hint from that girl over there. She needs payment so give it to her unless it involves you dying or going completely insane (the title has to be fulfilled). Again, did you think this was going to be easy?

Realize that you can’t trust her or the one other you were thinking maybe you could trust. Be paranoid and this is the part where you go a little insane but you’re almost halfway out, don’t worry, you’ll be fine.

Find the center. If you don’t know how, use that hint you got or just figure it out.

You should have successfully gotten through the maze if you find the center. If you actually have to find your way out to the other side, repeat these instructions. 

Except don’t. Because everything’s different now. Instead of fighting an uphill battle, you’re fighting a downhill one. And you can’t come out where you started. You have to come out on the other side. 

Maybe this advice has been…questionable. You might appreciate getting free rein from here, or not. But you should’ve stopped listening to these directions a long time ago! The most important part of getting out of the maze is trusting yourself, not some wacky directions!

But if you absolutely need the advice, then here it is: go through those doors and just continue to move. And maybe you could take advice from humans and *some* non-humans, but don’t lose yourself among them. Stay patient (or not) and remember, if you have to keep one thing in mind, keep some shred of sanity (or else the title would have lied).